~wO aI nI~

Move house

2008-10-15T10:33:00.000+08:00

due to many things. ive decided to change my blog address. yup.

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end.

bird cage

2008-10-14T19:02:00.004+08:00

suddenly Untitled kept running thru my mind. guess the songs really sings out my life. shud i say im ~~happy~~/unhappy/~~lucky~~/unlucky to born to this family. or issit god pose me into a rong family?

im so lost. why i just cant reach ~~de path~~ my path.

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when ~~someone~~ says "you can count on me" do they actually mean it? or they just saying at the point when seeing you such a pity.

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i guess my ~~grammer and english getting bad~~. i coudlnt express myself anymore
unless im numb,drunk,no feeling.

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where is ~~his~~ shoulder?

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I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me

kaya bread

2008-10-11T09:50:00.003+08:00

cant believe i can sit and surf for nearly 3 plus hrs!

HAHA.. cant believe oso just changing de top pic can waste 1 hr plus of my time. time is just so so precious.

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suddenly lost of words...

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this zi-lian guy trying to show off his rebonded fringe! LOL

our legs (:

mine and his

my baby hammy resting on BF hands.

this goldfish, i bought it next day when BF got his new fish tank and new goldfish. so i bought 3 mini 1s to join them. only this manage to survive. the other 2 got outcast awhile later go le. no idea why also.

the rest of de fish. my foto taking skill sux

IF YOU SMELL~~~~~ WATS DE BOY IS DOING? O_O
LOL! alright la. he is stretching. den i go disturb.

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when i have de HWEELING of wat to blog. i'll be back. mayb tired le. off to nap 1st
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失落非主流

你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.
时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.
要怎么停呢

你的绘画凌乱着.
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.
时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的痛了.
怎麽了.你累了.说好的.幸福呐
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.
要怎么停呐
怎麽了.
你累了.
说好的.
幸福呐.
我懂了.
不说了.
爱淡了.
梦淹了.
我都还记得.
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐和还旋转着.
要怎么停呐

deep thoughts

2008-10-09T07:31:00.002+08:00

i cant say everything out. so just a rough.

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just ate a fulling muffin and a few pieces of pineapple for breakfast. last den 30 mins i got to step out of hse to work.
so unwilling to go to work. thinking of de job scope makes me wanna NUA on bed, be fat.

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have u guys ever been outcast b4? by friends, colleagues, family or even own boyfriend? mayb not really outcast but neglect? i just so feeling it right nw. busy schedule makes him sometimes just so neglecting me. de attention i can see is no longer on me anymore. de past him, just willing to do everything to make me smile. but nw de focus in on friends no longer on me. de patience given to me is getting more and more lil everyday. i feel so afraid knowing and sense so much. coz i rather be dumb to be treated in anyway. rather nw i keep being so down. i can sense " YUE LAO " isnt doing his job over my side. ):

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off to work

another beginning

2008-10-07T07:37:00.002+08:00

BF started sch. i dont think i able to cope back the time. but i guess again time takes place. dragging to feet everyday to work. no mood to work at de place anymore. but i'll still work for de sake for money only. friends... hmm`

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yst my mood was disaster. my mood down for nearly a day. looking at de gyoza container reminds me lots of memories. *and i still haven return to company* HAHA! =D

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something stuck in my butt just dont wanna come out. constipation ):

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I Heart My Boyfriend

thinking too much

2008-10-03T22:30:00.003+08:00

i often heard from friends, family, strangers.. that sacrifices will someday been look upon. but i guess they arent really right. humans tends to take for granted.

only when u start to lose something/someone deeply important to u. u den starts to cherish watever u have. i guess i'm 1 of those who dont know how to cherish. esp those who loves me. tats why nw i met someone who didnt noe hw to cherish me. time and time again.

sometimes i really dunno why. i just cant control my brain and mouth well. think alot, talk alot. think tat way talk another way. talk another way think another way. just dont link.

we're lack of truth, trust and thoughtfulness. we think the way we think it is and we argue to win. we continue to lie when we have already started it. i guess if i can handle this properly, i'll be having my own family already.

can i just have a 20 yr old girl mind and thinking's?

and i so so confirm tat immunity is really muz be build in u. by temporary really dont works. im not immune when im awake. i hurt myself to feel better. i cut i bleed i cry i bang i shout i hit to get better. im a sadist. why i just cant let myself lead a better life.

i try to be well controlled for everything. but i dunno issit opposite partner makes me lose control. im weak. family cant be there for me always. neither friends. i tends to stand alone.

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at this very moment too

心里那眼泪模糊了视线
你已经看不见

NS kills

2008-10-02T07:43:00.001+08:00

another NS man died. condolence*

B.A.D - 我的错

飞机已离开机场
妳选择了前往妳的方向
不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往
忘了我给妳的伤
学会坚强

从前的我不懂妳牺牲多大
为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想
觉得没怎样
不会将心比心去想
让妳慢慢慢慢失去了希望

能不能够再给我机会好好的爱妳
我会仔细的聆听
妳对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让妳伤心
对妳好好的去珍惜
请妳相信我的心还是爱妳

我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补妳的伤
没那种事
怎么做才能够停止
后悔竟伤妳如此
不再放肆
为何总到失去才懂的难过
当妳在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候
都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有
就让妳爱我的心慢慢溜走
能不能够再给我机会好好的爱妳
我会仔细的聆听
妳对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让妳伤心
对妳好好的去珍惜
请妳相信我的心还是爱妳

不够成熟

2008-09-21T10:07:00.003+08:00

TADAH!! SPINE! still hurting me )):

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Yst morning chaos again. but afternoon was great. had lunch at FORK n SPOON with BF at TPY. after tat we head to vivo. (: we both just love to nua! LOL..

during de shopping time, my tummy start to aches. beloved BF bought me chocolates from candy empire (: and tat really cheers me alot. chocolate and cookies rox! =x

OH YA!! saying about this. we was at toy r us.. and i saw this EEYORE CUSHION!! ARGHH! i wan it la. but it cost $99.95! LOL?? it totally dont look tat expensive la. =.= hais!

ok den off to see PETS! and nua at de top of vivo! nua for nearly 2 hrs! and of coz! FOTOS!!

i was trying to take de view! dunno why he gave me a HAIS look facing down =.=

一同分享我们的天空

NC16!!

okok he name my SUNGLASS de BUZZ BUZZ! and whenever i wears it. he will name me de BUZZMON! and now! im gonna show u de BUZZMAN!

!! LOL i didnt take de full view. coz it looks dam toot.
but i think he look cool lei =.=

he is handsome ok! who dare say NO! I KILL U AH!

den during night we head to clark quay to have dinner. vivo cfm no place for dinner unless we really wait.

and i was super high yst night bcoz of de live band xD

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last week oso went vivo with family happen to see my STAR cruise.

GEMINI!
MINE AND HIS CRUISE (:

my HP cam cant really shutter it clearly. but i really nv see GEMINI 1 b4.

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BF playing DOTA on my lappy. lying on bed like a big piece of pork right? LOL

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SUNSET taken at his HSE.

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on bus on the way to AMK for DURIAN PANCAKE ^^

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and BF army body checkup letter has arrived recently. and he super duper sian! LOL.. muz jiayou le o BF! ^^

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BF! this song is dedicated to you ((:

UNBREAKABLE - WESTLIFE

Took my hands, touched my heart
Held me close, you were always there
By my side, night and day
Through it all, baby come what may
Swept away on a wave of emotion
Oh we’re caught in the eye of the storm
And whenever you smile I can hardly believe that you’re mine
Believe that you’re mine

This love is unbreakable
It’s unmistakable
And each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
A feeling my heart just can’t deny
Each time I look in your eyes, oh baby
I know why
This love is unbreakable

Share the laughter, share the tears
We both know we’ll go on from here
Cos together, we are strong
In my arms, that’s where you belong
I’ve been touched by the hands of an angel
I’ve been blessed by the power of love
And whenever you smile, I can hardly believe that you’re mine

This love is unbreakable
It’s unmistakable
Each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
A feeling my heart just can’t deny
Each time you whisper my name, oh baby
I know why

This love is unbreakable
Through fire and flame
When all this is over
Our love still remains

This love is unbreakable
It’s unmistakable
Each time I look in your eyes
I know why
This love is untouchable
A feeling my heart just can’t deny
Each time you whisper my name, oh baby
I know why
Cos each time I look in your eyes, oh baby
I know why,
This love is unbreakable

What Hurts The Most

2008-09-19T15:51:00.002+08:00

wat really hurt de most, is being so close.

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so true! right nw, nuaing in my BF room blogging. u guys sure wonders.. eh? i tot she and her BF having serious problem? or a brk up? i think this already become a daily activity le. LOL! mayb oso can say not so daily la. just nearly every quarrel will lead to it. well. i guess every relationship haven really stable will like this? if love is strong i dont think anything able to brk a couple up even if is a brk up or watso ever..

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looking at my BF nw i really feel like cuddling with him. but nid to blog 1st xD..

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today is 2nd day of DA YI MA! which i hate de most out of de "WAT SO GOOD BEING A WOMAN?" catagory.. and my back spine really hurt me ALOT. makes me cant even sit or slp properly. T_T double pain during this month. luckily with notti BF care. i MONSTER KILL de pain 1st xD

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saying about monster kill.. trying to get on hands with de DOTA ALL STAR thingy. super stiff with de keyboard. hand isnt fexible with it yet. well.. shall train and prawn my dear! =X *ok its impossible.. he is pro at it*

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this week totally no mood to work everyday. PMS and spine haunting. finally its a weekend already. and i think i earn super less this month. and i so want to go to genting. when my dad didnt even rejects :)) but its 180! kaos.. its like 70 bucks more. CRY*

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只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的
我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得
你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开
你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

Nice Weather

2008-09-15T07:32:00.002+08:00

sucha nice weather today. despite slping on bed, i got to crawl up to work.. when i have feeling to slp long today. yucks )): i always having unenjoyable nights and morning. just couldnt find back my slp.

yst night dinner dad and uncle treat. coz randy [cousin] going army tml.. no feeling to work tml. see how ba. i earn super lil this month and im still thinking of going to genting end of this month.

and roslyn her sister got a iphone from her god dad. wat a wise choice. tat i kinda addict to de games and technology. shud say kinda worth a price. clever her chose a 16G 1. *claps*

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can some1 define some love to me? wat is de definition of love?

love is blind?
love is forgive and forget?
endure everything even thou u dislike it?
open 1 eye close 1 eye?

argh i really dunno?

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when u were to cherish, things goes de opposite ways.

but i still think communication is very important. esp understanding.

tit for that

2008-09-12T07:23:00.002+08:00

basically.. im a very tit for that person.. how u treat me, i will have de same treatment bak to u even if i noe its isnt right to do. but i wouldnt care.. BUT definitely not to de 1 i love.

already say is de 1 u love. no matter how bad he/she treats me.. i will still treats him/her as a friend or a close 1. and for blood relations. also occurs too la.

saying about this. i really do feel eyes can talk. beside lying.. simply look into his/her u will somehow noe wat they trying to mean or tell u. i dunno issit bcoz im sensitive towards surrounding. even if is lil action.. i noe wat u r trying to hint. my 6 sense can still consider kinda true..

sometimes i really dislike this family of mine. but im somehow oso happy for having such family. LOL!! ok la.. mayb family le ma. the words they use didnt really think thru properly. so always hurting each other.. esp bcoz of money. but mine..

can really say is bias. 1 case. even though sounds small. but actually im not happy about it.

theres 1 day. dad bought bread for my breakfast. and my DIDI keep wanting to eat bread. without hesitation de MOM just take de bread for him. when my dad saw it.. its already been tear apart and bitten. wat more can he say?

and dinner.. nw granny only cook during weekend. so SHE started to cook daily on weekdays. when im home.. she nv even bother to ask am i eating or not? so they just happily having their rice outside like im a outside renting a room from them tats all.

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tats why i would really like to have family love from friends or BF. but always fail. no matter how hard i tried. theres always a corner eye looking at me doubting on my action. that depress me.

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alight gtg work le. ciao*

when we're gone

2008-09-07T21:46:00.002+08:00

why. just why happiness end so fast. and pain stays so long.

why we just cant like other couple. i always ask myself.. r all this retribution? im just arent worthy.

right nw.. the pain still stays inside my deep heart. very deep inside. struggling to get out. but just cant.. i cant stand de pain.. i couldnt make it go away. i try to immune myself. but im still so fresh. fresh with de pain. why everything just got to go so quickly.. so many question mark in me right nw. my tears just like water tap. keep flowing and flowing.

so much things happen 1 shot to me. family quarrels. serious quarrel with him. bills came in as usual. is there anything can let me slp till de next morning? i so wanted to call him. but i guess he might not want to hear my voice. holding onto my HP waiting for him. click onto new msg. but i just starred blankly at de white screen. i wish he would be here with me at this moment. why am i so brking apart.

how many times muz we face this kind of unhappy moments? it got more and more serious each time.. im feeling some1 strangling me right nw. i couldnt breath. couldnt move.

i hope im dead.
let me be..

溏心风暴II - 家好月圆

2008-09-06T10:52:00.002+08:00

溏心风暴II-家好月圆
wonderful show ((:

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Do you swear to tell the truth the whole truth and nothing but the truth?
-i wont really say de whole truth. partially ba.

Where were you last night?
-HOME

What is the date?
-7/09/2008

Who was the last person to call you?
-BF, Junwen

When you're at the grocery store do you use the self checkout?
-wat is tat? O_O

Anyone crushing on you?
-i dunno.

What is your relationship status?
-happily attached!

Has anyone ever sang to you?
-ya ((:

Has anyone ever given you roses?
-nope. but sunflowers yes ((: coz i prefer sunflower

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
-shud be O_O

Who do you text the most?
-BF!

How do you make your money?
-work lo.

First person to text today?
-BF

What is your favorite color?
-orange!

What is a compliment you receive often?
-GOOD JOB! LOL

How tall are you?:
-155CM! i love my short height ((:

Who was the last person to say they loved you and when?
-of coz my BF! yst night ba (:

Do you like your parents?
-of coz! i love my family ((:

Do you secretly like someone?
-NO! hehe

Why did your last relationship end?
-coz he SUX. (:

Where is the furthest place you've traveled?
-YUN NAN - china ba~

Which do you prefer, to eat or sleep?
-sleep (:

Do you look more like your mom or your dad ?
-my DAD la! 99% photocopy

How long does it take you to shower?
-more den 10 mins.

Can you do splits?
-cant haha

Are you flexible?
-normal lor

What did you do on New Years Eve?
-HAPPY watching fireworks with BF

Was your mum there?
-of coz NOT.

Can you speak any other language than English?
-abit of jap. cantonese, abit of hokkian. chinese lo.

What is the last letter of your middle name?
-I

How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
-8

Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?
-seldom =X

Are you scared of flying?
-ya. im afraid of height

Who was the last person you kissed?
-my BF

Do you like funny people or serious people?
-funny xD

What are you listening to?
-溏心风暴. watching/listening while blogging.

What jewelry do you wear all the time?
-necklace, bracelet and anklet.

What do you have planned for tonight?
-spending time with BF.

Is the last person you kissed older than you?
-nope.

Do you prefer myspace or socialsplash?
-both not.

Do you have a favorite item of clothing?
-dresses ((:

Do you like messages or comments better?
-comments ba

Last movie you saw in theaters?
-4bia *shivers*

Last thing you ate?
-MARS bar

What was last thing you drank?
-oolong tea (:

Are you happy right now?
-normal lor

If you could have one thing right now what would it be
-happiness

Who makes you happiest right now?
-no WHO ba.

What were you doing at midnight last night?
-slping xD

Are you left handed?
-once. but got change to right.

What was for dinner tonight?
-no idea o..

What is the last thing you thought about?
-wat to do

When is your birthday?
-17 JUNE

Do you want to get married & have children one day?
-OF COZ!!!

ODM KABOOM!

2008-09-02T21:01:00.002+08:00

plenty of DVDs to marathon soon.. dad got me love guru, dark knight, hellboy2 and shaolin girl.

suddenly within 1min i've lost 210$.. T_T stupid HP bills and SCV/internet! CRIES.. dad kuku sports channel cost me 30 already.. YAWNS.. i nid to work more den a week to gain back this money.. Sigh*

alright back to topic.. work today us usual.. watch 4bia recently. hmm` i dont really recommend it. coz its sucks! IT SCARES DE FOR 2 HOUR! LOL.. ok la its a 7/10 ba. consist of 4 diff stories. and last story really nearly pull my heart out of me. at de 2nd story i nearly request BF to leave de cinema.. i really swear to god. i nearly cry and vomited. its so dam gross and scary can. WTF! uh no! suddenly reminds me of park mall BAN MIAN with EE MIAN. T_T im tempting it right nw. saying about food. i got NO idea why i am gaining weight when i eat SUPER lil! this morning was 49! den after work come bak 51! SOBS. BF say i too much gas inside tummy coz im angry with him until this moment T_T.. i just wanna constant 50 la pls! SOBS..

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i just simply dislike uninvited party and group gathering. well, i couldnt really explain de feeling. but i just dont like. somekind of ego i think. well..

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lappy on a kind of stupid cookie virus

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recently im on beer delight. keep having beer b4 slp. or sometimes VODKA. and right nw i have de whole collection of small VODKA already. rdy to collect de medium 1. LOL..
im having abit of sleepless night. due to money and BF. diff kind of ppl have diff kind of view and acknowledgment towards love. as for me. my point of love its undefined la. but simple expectations sure have.. like, simple understanding, some sacrifice, basic care and concern u muz give. mayb i really meet diff kind of guy. SUCKS big time 1, flirter, two timer, violence, and so on.. so of coz i know and can see guys more clearly this time.

if u r bored.. seeking out of entertainment. i dont mind. but why ppl just love doing things behide ppl's back.. even though he/she noe tat is F rong?
- break promises
- lies
- inconsistent
1 thing i simply couldnt take it is.. she/he claims tat she/he understands. but things nv change. she/he can keep nodding head says " i really understand how u feel le, promise me i wont do it again"

this is just a so common sentence to be said am i right? or shall i say this ppl just isnt rdy for love? couldnt sacrifice to change yet?

another 1.. hacking care.

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sometimes. wat i wan and think is very simple.. i wanna be a carefree person right nw. i noe de only possibility is being single. coz u will have no worries..

but wat i belive is.. being attach u too can be carefree. including ur partner understands ur needs/wants. but i guess.. i haven met him yet. the him is either hiding? not rdy? being tied on? i dunno.

i guess i muz keep trying. if not..

i will just give up 1 day..
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Nothing without You

2008-08-30T10:33:00.002+08:00

Every couple have their unique love story that only both of them share.

I have my very own love story too. even though its a short period. but the up and down we've shared, its definitely more den wat u guys have expected (:

if you wish to know wat happen. u can continue to read. if u dont bother. u can just shut it off. (:

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We started last year which is 2007. We knew each other online through a game name Audition. i guess lots of ppl playing it and lots of ppl knew this game too.

at tat time audition is quite a hot game after maplestory. the moment of time i've already quited maple. and still kinda noob to Audi. i still remember meeting him at a room for Battle Party. at tat time i just learned de chancing mode. [u got to press de opposite arrows instead of de arrows they have shown u] so i started to score alot more higher den others coz im still at de novice lvl.

and happen to come in a guy name himself 'Fantasia' keep scoring higher den me. and so happen we nearly score about the same. as my own characteristics. i just love to aim higher den others when im capable. so i kept my cool and kept playing to win him.
actually sound kinda childish la. but de very moment im super high ok! LOL..

and he started talking. he said; "i can lose to anyone but not to xhUrhUrx" ok so! tats me. so haha we started to add each other on buddy list. so i can have more frens for battle party to win MONEY. we have totally no intention of anything like others are. [theres lots of despo ppl online]

so we started to casual chat. like where is he studying and etc.. when de moment i know his age i come str8 to mind saying.. "u must call me jiejie liao" coz he is a yr older and he is guessing my age too. but he ans me str8 tat he dont want any JIEs.

anyway i dont mean to be his JIE also! coz wat i meant is tat im older den him tats all =X so we exchange our msn. but i didnt add him str8. like i said. no intention after all.

suddenly 1 day. [my off day] i happen to clearing out my table desk. i saw him email. den i rmb of adding him. so i added. friendster too i think? cant rmb.. we chatted super lil i rmb. coz im too busy with work and he is busy with his studies too. but i rmb him saying if my company nids ppl. he would wanna help out coz he is having holidays soon. so i keep it mind. and my company really nid ppl. so i left him a off line msg on MSN including my HP no.

So... he msged me saying tat he would like to come for interview and so..
We arranged! and we met ((: i rmb its a Saturday.

OK! no joke ah. de 1st moment i saw him i was like. WA! TALL =X and he wear super anyhow la! 3 quartz and slipper! LOL..

so i brought him into de room for interview, and i went off for my lunch brk. but i dunno why i turn back again. so i went in to accompany him.

anyway he told me he blushes. but i totally dont rmb he blushes. i only rmb, he told me tat BUTA aka pork in jap sounds like PUN TEH aka girls private part in indian. den i was like?? LOL! u 1st time meet girls den u pun teh le! but tat didnt effects me. until he hits my head coz i kept shooting him with words. LOL! but i muz really agree about something. He is really very cute. [but not now!] LOL! den after tat he told me he going to have revision in sch. so he left. leaving his BOOKS there when he left. so is obvious he is NOT interested in de revision la! LOL.. i said to him tat. and again he hits my head. [softly]

i dunno why i blush and heart beat super quick. i must confess saying. im de 1 who sms him 1st after de meeting. frankly speaking.. he didnt really woo me. coz he didnt manage to.

i rmb theres 1 day he wanna drop by my work place to bring me off work. he even end his brother meeting to fetch me. but too bad. i was release early tat time! LOL..

i dunno why i feel special sparks towards him. i rmb theres 1 day i feel super devastated. i called him. he was on train and im crying. he harsh me down. i noe all guys will harsh a girl down. but he sang to me tat day. " Guardian Angel "

i felt so so much relived and enlighten. and i think my feelings started to grow and i told him. i guess he has touch me. de hitings de singing. coz im kinda immune towards love already actually. as de previous relation hurts me kinda deep. so i take kinda long to realise my feelings for him.. but i did tell him how i feel. and he told him how he feels too. we got tgt on de 9th of December 2007.

but the moment of time i was kinda sian! coz he nid to fly to Australia for a week when we just got tgt for less den a week la! but we able to keep this bond till he is back. ((: and disaster starts coming in to pull us down. even brk us up.

lots of third party and wrong doings. he hurt me super deep during de start. until mid den started to calm down. i dont wish to mention all those unhappy days. coz its past. and the JunWen i noe right nw is so so much better den de 1 he used to be.

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HIM

after saying so much. i still didnt mention wat kind of person is he..

Frankly speaking. he is really not the kind of guy im looking for. Main factor. he has been too pamper at home. He came from a single parent family same as me. but is different case. His dad past away 2 yrs after i noe him. he is de only son in the family. [ya heavy burden for him] so do i got to face alot of things. i got to handle his sensitive mom. about his mom. his mom is a 100% MOTHER. very very caring, meticulous and over sensitive. super protective towards her family. esp de son. SO! i always get confronted by his mom. like i received sms from his mom saying this and tat, that hurts my feelings. i always cried to him saying how much i couldnt take it anymore. i wanna end it. saying why he so useless making his mom and gf keep worrying. AS for guys. which guy like to known as useless? He is just so nice. he harsh me down, explains to me. apologize for his weakness and talks softly to me and his mom.

i oso muz agreee tat whenever i nid him. is either he is sleeping or totally unknown tat there is incoming call from me. i did blame him always. as my temper is super hot. i always scold him like he have no tml. but he still always apologize for his behavior and return me de care.

he is a guy who can hide he feelings super well. he can throw everything aside and goes to bed without worrying about later on. which i really admire it de most. but oso hurt me de most. he can be up sad, jealous, angry without letting me noe. but he oso dont know tat he have a "know him too well" GF tats me! i always see thru him. but sometimes i see wrongly. LOL. and ya. i always like to jealous about his ex. keep having those kind of unfair feeling.

but i always and never noe. he loves me de most. he change for me de most. he dotes me de most.

a man full of freedom, full of rights. he gave it up for de girl he loves. and de stupid me always thinks it wasnt enuff.

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BF,
time and time. i always wanted to say to u, explain to u, shout it out to u. How great r u. but my tongue just shut me up. so i just pads u and saying how nice u r in my heart. coz i just wanna keep it all to myself. de greatness in u. is no1 can replace. u may not be de my wanted guy. u may not be de 1 who can sacrifice for me de most. but you are de 1 who i really love de most in my 20 yrs life.

Dear.. rmb wat we always say. God made us tgt. we seen it, we know it. Coincidence. we cant avoid. this path is build for me and you to walk on. Dear. Hold on my Hands and walk with me. i know u will always hold on to me when i fall or im tired. so do i. Dear. I love You.

Thanks You

2008-08-25T12:03:00.002+08:00

Today BF turn to have his retake Os eng oral. 1stly wanna wish him all the best.

just nw happen to saw my top cupboard. and this is wat i see.

all of this are once in our stomach and been PEE out le. LOL!! we r good drinker ok! =X im proud to see de empty chivas. coz i drank most of it without waiting for BF. LOL!!

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yst went to causeway point with BF. plenty of fun. and we r running around de whole shopping mall finding a particular snack. happen to see this guy biting this snack walking past us. i didnt noe he was looking at him too la! until i pull him to uncle tibits den i noe. and BF really focus him lo. he even describe him out for me. when BF seldom look at someone so particularly. LOL! but we couldnt find it =.=

but i got something better! we found HOT HOT muffin! cool! how can u find HOT muffin during late evening? =3* i rmb when we bought it de time im super full. so i say later den eat lor. but no idea why i still push it up and bite. LOL! still got say by BF. HUMPF! and i still eat till whole mouth full of choco.

OH YA! BF;s mom bought RANCHU!! but dead 9 =.= so they bought 9 again. and right nw his fish tank de water become choppy! * giggles

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randoms

i boast my fone camera is better den his 5 megapix
LOL

snap it when he didnt notice. i tel u guys. he can just style his hair de WHOLE BLOODY DAY without fail. =3

i love him so so much.

off to discuss with BF about boxers. TATA

kinship

2008-08-17T11:03:00.005+08:00

what is kinship? hurting and hurting? family? i always tot i've a family. but actually wat de truth is im always cast aside.

no1 understands me. my bf, my family, my frens. no1 understands. no1 understands wat i wan also. why.

知道

2008-08-11T20:55:00.002+08:00

stomach super full right nw. cook maggie soup with vege. without those maggie =X some mango pudding and a bread for dinner. watched some dramas. spent some time to update.

hm, i always have this kind of doubting feelings and unfairness. even thou i noe every relationship is so diff. i just force myself for not having this kind of feelings. i noe alot alot of things in this current relation. i noe him so well and his family. tat sometimes i feel so tired and stress.

love is blind. love is selfish. this two sentence just simply describe my feelings for him right nw.

love this whole song lyrics..

她让你憔悴许多
她让你不知所措
她的一举一动你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你的心中逗留

我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动

你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一举一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落
嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候

我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你的心中逗留

我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动

我知道了她哪里比我好更多
在你心中我永远不可能会让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我在你心中没有她多

吻得太逼真

2008-08-09T22:44:00.003+08:00

WOOO~ just got back from aunt hse at TPY.. went to see fireworks and family gathering. most important is FOOD!!! we had [[ fish fried kway teow, xin zhou bee hoon, selfmade chicken wings, kuay pati, pi dan, self BBQ satay, cherry tomatos, otah, mango pudding, agar agar, mu er and bai guo as dessert. ]] so dam full la. and de night b4 we had those auction dinner for 7th month. SINFUL!!! yst night dinner was good. was a 10 course meal. uncle auct a $400 big robot car for DIDI and a $200 rice.

this morning woke up at 8.30AM. followed dad to boonkeng for breakfast with DIDI. and this notti didi really make me super buay tahan. he is SUPER DUPER notti =.= den got home around 10AM. clean my hammy cage den slack at living room watching Olympic. BF was with his family having breakfast and doing hse work. we intend to meet in the afternoon. but i decide to give it a miss bcoz i dunno why i super tired. so i went to have a nap with dear. till near 3PM. and tats really very LONG for me. coz i dont nap tat long. BF taken medicine so also slp like dead fish. den i went to pompom. after tat i went into de room and saw a SUPER FAMILIAR FACE at my WINDOW!! guess wat =.= its my BF! coz today its our 8 month. he got me sunflower bouquet and famous amos cookies. =DDD super shock and HAHA! so invite him into my hse to sit. den dad ask me to accompany him to TPY den i walk over to aunt hse. dad even intended to ask BF to come up to my aunt place to eat. but BF having family day. plus some conflicts also. so i rather he go home for dinner.

P.S

i really wanna thanks my work mates for those white gold. i really dunno hw to thanks u guys with actions or words. bcoz i really nv met such nice frens b4. i really thanks u with my heart. and SHE definitely can see from the top and certainly bless u guys. Thanks Dong Hai, Jimmy, Xubin, HuiJun, Kihara, Mr Tan and Sasaki.

Real appreciated.

alright! Some fotos (:

Dinner yst night!

HEART shape made by F16

didnt take any of those fireworks foto bcoz my dad say it look like shit =.= so i video it down for BF.

TPY. at my aunt hse 30 story.

BF present for me ((:

contented having him. even thou he is SUPER WACKY everytime =X

BACK!!

2008-08-06T11:05:00.002+08:00

WEEEEEEEE! im backk.. guess i've lost alot of readers. haha. nvm~ xD watch money not enuff2 twice and watched MUMMY yst. mummy was great. but too bad was at de front 2 row. abit zzz. plus de ah tiong beside me SIBEH KP. so noisy la. nv noe their sound limits =.=

had lots of happening things going on ever since the day i last blog. so mayb i shall skip all tat and start from tml onwards ((:

oh ya, anyone nid part time job? *scratch head* why my work place always lack of staff.. haha ok 1st month 5.50 2nd month 7.50~ job environment ok if u dont step into de politics. and my exams r nearer and nearer..

well, we got back tgt again. hais.. 7 days, 5 days small quarrel 2 days big quarrel. mayb our relationship is really meant to quarrel to be tgt. tats de way we show care? but sometimes i really dont understand wat guy wants. they say they wants u to be happy. but in other hand, they kept doing things making u upset and disappoint u. and they only thing they reply is " why u girls expect so much from us " or " i didnt noe doing tat is rong " or " u girls always right la "

why their mind only can think of this kind and not furthermore? and when they lose her. they started to think le. and finally realize wat is not given.. humans instinct? cherish is b4 losing it doesnt applies to humans i guess. my boy is just so so inconsistent tat i always kind of doubt his love and thinking. he wanna be simply. but he dont give me a simple thinking. i just wanna noe wat he wants. wat he really nid. i really dislike de feeling things been doing behide my back. totally have no sense of security. and i nid a ensure feeling towards this love. not when brk up we cry telling each other hw much we nid each other. is to show me in de process of love. not when ending. whenever i see ur inconsistent, ur back doings. makes me always wanna back off and feelings fade automatically.

i agree im 50% more sensitive den other girls. but tats born in me to see things clearly coz im nearly living in my own world for 10 over yrs already. i dont have a mom and my dad nids to work. i nid to protect myself so i nid to be sensitive.

oo well, i guess i should stop saying. dunno why all my relationship just cant smooth. hais..

i go watch my tang xin feng bao le.

truth

2008-07-20T13:24:00.001+08:00

our story has ended. so do my blog. i think i will pause awhile den continue back to blogging. take care peeps

Missing

2008-07-18T22:47:00.003+08:00

weee~ im like missing in action for very long. have been busy working during this two weeks. not much of time to blog oso.

recent updates..

HAPPENING.

one of my beloved hamster is dead. )): 1 of de female i dote de most have been attacked by another female yesterday while i was at work. by de time i saw her. she is so so weak tat she can hardly breathe and kept crying. she was gone today at 3.15AM. had just buried her nearby. Rest in peace my baby..

RELATIONSHIP.

have been quarreling with my BF almost everyday. quarreling have been my part and parcel of my life right nw. ya truely both of us r very tired of quarreling already. and to be frank.. he is no more longer tat sweet to me already.. which makes me keep anyhow think. but actually i noe wat is de reason. its just we already use to have each other by side. dont have to be sweet always. and more ourselves already. i guess this is de time u started to see each other true selfs? i've no idea.. feelings is just so hard to understand. it can be this min or next min thing. no 1 can solve it. and i definitely noe guys r much more blur blocks den girls. but my expectation always keep tat high.

sometimes i really blame myself. so wat i come from a single parent family. i cant just expect everything from my BF to give it to me. but simply i can resist myself. i just nid attention. and i really do nid him only. but he always dont give himself to me. i just cant have him when i needed someone.

i just couldnt understand. bcoz me myself oso couldnt get de ans from myself. so i chose to keep quiet and want him to hug me tight. but his satellite just couldnt receive my signal. bcoz we still not heart to heart yet. sometimes i really do wonder, r we really meant to be tgt? r god fooling us? punishment? i really dunno.

WORK.

well, my manager is bak from jap. and nw whole work place is simply chaos. bcoz of ah tiongs. just this pathetic couple came to join us. our work place is simply full of swearing everyday. just so so F dirty ok. we name them de BB's club. bitch and bastard.

and i certainly miss yoshinari who came from jap to replace DH. he is superb can. esp his onigiri. i've some fotos of him and me with work mates. ((: and random fotos enjoy~

sushi i've made for BF 2 weeks ago (:

vivo girls toilet =.=

VIVO us~!

BF opening eye slping tortoise.

i force him to take xD. and he style it for me ((:

the onigiri tat YOSHINARI san made for me ((:

"Tentoumushi" ladybug in JAP. said from kikuchi tat 7 spots r lucky. so i kept him ((: b4 tat jimmy throw it into my cloth water. and it went swimming xD.

im just so ugly during work. but anyway im happy having them. so i muz SHOW!!
but missing xiaohan and xing yue )):

tat JANIO anyhow snap me while im drinking melon sprite.

YOSHINARI and KIKUCHI

JIM and NARI ((: they r short =x!!!

SASAKI de extra =.=

US

SASAKI and JIM

(:

NARI and XING YUE =X!

TAKURO. he is sort of handsome de. OOPS! later BF angry xD
tats why i put as last pic. HAHA!!

CYA !!!!!!!!!!!!

never enough

2008-07-02T09:11:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder.. hmm` besides myself and BF who reads my blog.

anyway.. lots of random` coz too many days nv update so kinda hard to recall totally and blog everything out.

burger king with him (:

WOOOO

grandpa have been shifted to another ward in TTSH. tat is a so call care center. fees oso higher.. but at least i dont feel alot of germs there den those usual ward.

BF finally got his pay. tats de 1st month pay. omedeto BF. and i've received a uber sweet msg from him today. i noe he is good at sweet talking. but i can differentiate his sweet talk and heart talk.

"just now in de bus looking at de beautiful sky. your pretty face keeps whirling on my mind. thinking bak de happy and sad memories. make me have a real deep conclusion. dear hazel, i wanna be with and only you. i wanna grow old with you, i wanna you to go thru with me thru all happiness, sadness, sickness. me sin jun wen, really love you chong pei shan."

he is gona torture me! coz he gona keep making me to love him more n more everyday and be his naggy GF. im soon a AUNTY la.

so nice of u BF.
ok off to find some things to made for bf later on.

i love the way u look at me

2008-06-26T07:50:00.002+08:00

been so long since i last blog. BF got me all those lazy germs.

tuesday came da yi ma xD. lucky work place enuff staff. so i got home early to rest.. yesterday went to fetch BF off work.. feeling so dizzy whenever im there waiting for him. no idea why is it.. den head to have my chawanmushi.. YUMMY! had chawan and chz cake for dinner.
den BF bring me to giant to buy some biscuits for my breakfast. so sweet of him. ((:
around 7.30 took bus to tpy and had some MAC fries.. den home sweet home.

recently i heard lots of breaking stories again. 月老 on de lose again.. why ppl just dunno hw to cherish ppl. ok im saying myself also..

i agree i didnt really cherish my BF well. always take him for granted by throwing temper on him. bcoz i noe he will give in. which i noe 1 day he might just walk away without giving anymore.. so i muz force and try very hard to control my temper right nw. JIAYOU!

since BF do read my blog. i guess i will blog it out..

DEAR,
actually alot of times im not happy. but i just dont want to quarrel. so i just keep it to myself and make u mind guess. you are right. im unhappy. but sometimes is just a virus in me attack. which i think is a small matter so i just keep it in heart.

coz i noe whenever i give in, i swallow it down. u sounds very happy and relive. well, i guess i just wanna see u smile. even though i always have a feeling on and off from u. but i believe u r loving me always do u? ever since 9/12/2007. i've been talking to u about relationship. going those up and down with u. u r right.. if u didnt love me tat much. u have already given up. forgive me dear..

BF, this isnt unique love. this is true love dear..

alright this sunday melinda invite me to her birthday party.. still thinking wanna go ma.. hmm`

QUIZ!!

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
- cry all i wan 1st, when i calm down, den slowly talk it out with him.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- i wan a smooth sailing thruout my life.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
- marrying the right guy. i dun mind eating at de coffee shop or having buffet at home.

4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
- no. coz is whether i face it or dont.

5. What's your ideal lover like?
- after BF appear. theres no more such thing in me.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- being loved of coz.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
- see how long he deserve being wait.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- time to move on (:

9. Is being tagged fun?
- past time

10. How do you see yourself in ten years time?
- getting older xD

11. Who are currently the most important people to you?
- BF and family.

12. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
- a person full of girl character. LOL

13. Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
- its hard to choose. i give up xD

14. What's the first thing you do every morning?
- YAWN! take hp look at BF sms.

15. Would you give it all in a relationship?
- yes. all girls will.

16. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
- de 1 who really make my heartbeats, make me cry, make me jealous and make me go crazy for him

17. What type of friends do you like?
- no specific. they likes me i like them can le.

18. What type of friends do you dislike?
- backstabber and two headed. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF

2008-06-17T23:09:00.003+08:00

WEEEEE~ finally im out of TEENS! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!

great great day! haven been celebrating my birthday properly since age of 17.. haven got a cake too. and this yr! i really super super happy la..

ok! picture means a thousand words..

BF's bought this tiramisu cake for me and sang me birthday song at 12AM ((:

happy me ((:

guess wat BF gave me for present?
TADAH!!!

ODM ODM ODM LA!!! my long wanted watch! was like YEARS la! at 1st i tot was MUG! but when i pull it out. i was like PIANG la! omg =.= i love it so so much! finally my wishlist can strike out tat!

Huge thanks to BF.. thanks dear~

den today! WORK! =x and work mates celebrated my birthday for me too!

CHIO!! super nice to eat la x=

2nd cake! contented ^_^

unglamorous foto by janice!

XiaoHan and Janice ((:

Jimmy XiaoHan and Janio

Kihara Xiaofan and Janio x=

Janio selfmade cookie

!!!

their pressie~ ((:

night time met BF for dinner (:

YUKI YAKI!

full and oily us x=

by BF!

lastly.. would like to thanks all my frens who made those effort smsing me, leaving comments on friendster and greets me. u r really my kakis..

to BF..

Dear.. thanks for loving me so much.. letting me see true love true feelings. even though road r rocky. but u always manage to smooth it down. thanks for my this 20th birthday of mine a memorable 1. i wanna spent every yr of my birthday with u only..

Great Thanks Dearr...

deep lost

2008-06-11T07:25:00.002+08:00

die die die die la! i like going to sick le. throat super itchy and dry.. theres flame also. plus keep sneezing.. today till 6 somemore.. and i still eat kit kat and milo for breakfast x=!

im really super lost right nw. no mood to do anything.. just wanna focus in my work nw and nth else.. coz am just nth.. nth to him.. i will nv be important..

im so tired le...

not simple

2008-06-10T22:45:00.003+08:00

gona blog den slp le. tml working 9-6.. yawnns~

work as usual.. celebrated XY and DH leaving of santouka. DH our gm going bak japan for his japan visa. XY is leaving de company to get rdy for her NTU life. soon another 3 girls gona leave too. im all alone by tat time and bully by those ah tiongs )):

poor lil BF had high fever. doc says is viral infection. he is getting better. but notti him. come down to fetch me off work today just to see me. THX BF. no more next time k.
he is dead tired i can see. slept for 3 hrs plus already. guess i cant wait for him to be up. coz i nid to work tml. let him have more rest ba. only worry he slim down. coz he haven had dinner yet. poor him..

and im working on SAT. 6-10.. gona let BF have sometime on his own which he long wanted i guess. mayb he will be happier tat way. am i getting immune? i have no idea. am very lost..

我知道那些简讯声你努力藏著
还怕我难过

mayb he nids them alot.. he nid lots of attention. i nid too. bcoz of u, im avoiding lots of communication and sorts. but he simply cant. he just nid them. them... im afraid of walking away. i feel like turning bak..

我舍不得
可是时间回不去了
爱你很值得

loving u. being ur gf. do my part..
is really all worthwhile JunWen

HAMMYS

2008-06-08T21:12:00.002+08:00

nw super angry plus worry! lovely BF is sick T_T and he nv let me know till we r nearly home. we met around 1 plus. till 6 den he told me he not feeling well. so sweet of him and stupid him ~_~.. afternoon actually intend to go to museum to see things de. end up went to get new cage and things for hammys. coz i adopt 5 hammys from a family. 1 female 4 babys. BF got me HAMMYs' things as my burfday presents. THX BF.. cage was ex. cost us 36$.

and his pathetic BF of mine. accompany me walk here and there when he was BLOODY SICK. i was super angry at de point when he told me actually he was SICK! its like i bully u thruout de whole day la! plus no 1 pei wo dinner le! HUMPF! den i quickly rush home put down hammys den bring BF fetch cab. right nw he shud be slping soundly.. SHHH X=

some of those hammys fotos. b4 tat! its US!

he is simply so so handsome ((:

let me show BF hammys 1st den mine.

MINE!!

the cage

BABYS

BF...
thx for de sacrifices today. i really really heartache. sry for throwing u behide at de point. i didnt mean tat. and i super wanna kill myself for doing tat to u just nw. sry barby. u're de best. always and forever. ((:

Immunity

2008-06-07T09:59:00.003+08:00

saw from xiaohur aka hsinghui blog. copy and paste this qns to do ((:
its raining heavily right nw. and as usual i just couldnt slp till as late i wan. have been bianbi for a day. BF uber happy to hear tat. LOL

01. What disappoints you the most?
- false hope

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
- taiwan

03. What's your favourite thing to do?
- theres alot lei. but de most should be listening to music. coz tat's wat i do nearly everyday.

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
- this is a yes and no lo.

05. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
- smooth sailing in my life for de rest of my time.

06. Do you believe you can survive without money?
- no. even go toilet oso nid money ler. =.=

07. What are you afraid to lose the most?
- de 1 i adores and adores me.

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
- donate to old folks home and orhanage. give money to dad and grandparents. abit to mommy. mayb like 5k? den buy somethings to BF home. save de rest for my future use. very high possibility im not using it right nw. coz im satisfy right nw with sufficient amount to use every month ((:

09. What do you dream of doing in the future?
- a happy go lucky housewife. i LOVEE being hsewife (:

10. List out 3 good points of being a hsewife?
- busy thruout de day, have own child accompany. de best its when husband return kissing ur forehead telling u how much he miss u, den after bath sitting at de table shouting at you for food coz he is craving ur cookings everyday, den cut fruits for him and children, wash plates den off to living room to chitchat, HONG child to slp. den HUBBY TIME. isnt tat sweet? =x okok its more den 3 reasons already.

11. What makes you happy?
- happiness

12. If you are to choose between your happiness or your close ones' happiness. Which will you choose?
- of coz is close ones' happiness. so tat they can make u happy too (:

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
- housewifee! BANZAI!

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
- wa! suddenly this qns. reminds me of iron man ><

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
- promises

16. Any childhood memories you'll like to re-live?
- nope.

17. If you have a chance to change your life now, what would you want to change?
- im happy actually even though im from a broken family. just wants my step mom to love my dad more. tat will be de greatest change in my life.

18. Which cartoon character you like most?
- eeyore!

19. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like he/she?
- if my love for him is defintely. i will.

20. Why does the person who tag me ask me to do these questions?
- bcoz he wants me to link him

chocolate chz cake

2008-06-06T23:08:00.002+08:00

cool! super long didnt update blog =X
busy with lots of things. BF finally 19 (: im soon 20 also.. lots of arguments going between de both of us. hope everything can settle down asap. coz i going abit KI SIAO. lols.. gave BF 3 surprises. think he likes it. (: wanna noe more. go to his BLOG to find it out (:.. BF's BLOG

wont blog about wat happen those past few days.
let me talk about today.
work 9-3.. BF fetch me off work coz he is on MC for 2 days with FAKE sickness x= 2 days lei. piang! >< den off for subway lunch. head to PS after tat for KUNG FU PANDA. BF was luffing all de way thruout de show. its funny. but i got no strength to luff coz too tired. haven been resting well for nearly a week.
had HORFUN and RICE for dinner x= actually its a mix thou. and nw waiting for BF to get home and chat abit off to my KAKA land.

BF, seriously. we have been quarreling nearly everyday. small and big matters. both of us also getting very sick of it already. i just worry 1 day 1 of us would just give up. wat i wanna say and think. i've said to u everytime. ever since we got to tgt till nw. and i think u noe wat i mean all this while. i really hope things will change a little.

明知故犯

2008-05-27T15:09:00.002+08:00

yesterday night was terrible. BF shouted at me again. im totally lost. does he still loves me? does he still wants me? i think afterall im a sucky GF.

Jimmy burfday fotos. omedeto jimmy ((: R21 movies coming ur way. LOL

and BF burfday coming too. *busy month* coz MINE COMING TOO! *hinthint

cake is real tasty ((:

Say " CHEESE " !!

singing burfday songs to him

candle blown

him and my GM dong hai! LOL they look so kkuku =.=

US. alot of missing ppl.

he holding de CHAR SIU knife! coz the plastic beside de cake is super hard to peel. so might as well use de knife to cut de cake xD since is his 21st burfday.

BF and ME.

im really short la. im tip toeing ALREADY! RAWRS!!
meeting BF after his work. going to bugis for spreee. haven see him for 36 hrs! its torturing alright.

BF i know work for u is tiring. everyday got to wake up at 6AM squeezing into mrt. and me this stupid pig always make u angry. BF. im sry.

为何要落泪
落泪仍要一个面对
无谓的负累
怎么不忍失去
其实我不怪谁
在你掌心里
偏偏我要孤单寄居

为何要恐惧
寂寞时欠一个伴侣
甜蜜中受罪
怎么讲都不对
无论你想爱谁
在你掌握里
我热情随时在手里
谁也知夜夜与她那内情
可惜我瞎了眼睛
真相哪需说明
而我却哼不出半声
谁也知夜夜与她那内情
甘心去做你布景
得到你的爱情
还要再得到你任性

一切原是注定
因我跟你都任性

kept listening to this song. and keep crying =.= why muz i always cry and not face it. BE STRONG HAZEL

dreamland

2008-05-26T18:56:00.001+08:00

i feel so useless
我很努力了我却还是学不会

男人女人

爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生来换你的快乐一生

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
不会再让我(你)心疼一等再等
你就是我等的那个人

男人男人
女人女人
多么希望你是对的人

weakest link

2008-05-24T23:09:00.002+08:00

i think i've reach de most bottom of my life today. slashes and blue black everywhere of me.

i just couldnt resist for not making myself hurt. i just cant love myself. tats simply isnt me. problems started from morning till night. happen to saw BF msn offline msg. simply stun and cold. just dunno who happen to disturb and let me saw tat. and silly me went to belive wat i saw den listening to my own BF explaination. i guess its phobia. den BF pop in surprising me with MCgriddles and him. im happy till lost of words. only to keep smiling.

den went over to his hse to slack. and saw something which i just dont like. im just typically selfish and lack of confidence. i feel so shared. i just wans de care and concern only on me. but BF is right. we nid to care for our frens regardless of race or sex. phobia phobia. i just so so scare of losing him tat i show it de rong way. and its totally isnt going right. stupid me. i knew i can overcome it. sooner.. i guess. i just nid some time BF.

den went to have BBALL game with him. bruises and hurt over my whole body. couldnt play while. sry BF. throwing temper again. saying those hurtful words to u during at de court. tell u de truth. i wouldnt return to him. i wont. i just wants u in my life. i have no idea of giving up. no tots of giving up. i just couldnt bear losing u. its like cutting off a piece of me. and i dont care whether r we meant to be tgt or not. coz i noe right nw im with u. and im still urs right nw! even if im de weakest link among ur EXs. i belive 1 day. u will see something good in me tat shine right over them. i admit my temper isnt good. im short tempered. and i promises to change. even i cant. i will avoid. its just always over react. and temper show. and thx to BF. ur tender loving care. ur faith. ur love.

Dear,
no matter wat happens. no matter how hard is it facing ur family or ur frens. i will eat it down like hotdog. chew it, swallow it and digest it. i wont vomit it out. i rmb i said b4. im with u. i love u. i nid to love everything of u. anthing related to u. and i'll show and i've show it to u. u noe im not good at words. not good at expressing. but i really hope tat u r happy. watever i do its really for de sake for ur smile. im willing to do anything everything just to see u smile. i noe i always bring u trouble and fights. thx dear. thx for enduring me taking me. thx for de effort u put in. be there whenever i nid u. covering and showering me when im down. de way u hold me down shouting at me. im totally lost. totally soft. u sound fierce. but i sense ur heart telling me. "Dear, stop doing tat to urself. its hurting me" i just couldnt stop crying. den i just cant face tat day of losing u.

u will nv noe how special u r. i noe i always say those hurtful words. piercing u. i cant promise i wont say those again. but dear. trust urself and me. u r already good enuff. very good enuff. i always couldnt belive u r mine. if can. i rather chose not to. im really super afraid of losing u. BF. u r very beautiful. very...

Instant noodle

2008-05-23T08:01:00.002+08:00

watashi genki desu. not gona talk about de ShiChuan earthquake. coz my living room tv have been playing de news ever since tat day from morning till night. im kinda scare of it already. ~_~

yesterday was DIDI aka kangkang burfday. o tanjoubi omedeto kangkang. didnt really celebrate. coz he still small dunno wats going on oso. so just normal dinner. and dad special treatment. no hitting and scolding on burfday. lols but end up reach home. everything back to normal days. LOL. went to vivo for walk. have been a long time since i go there. its simply great there. everything oso have. ((:

today is my colleuge Jimmy 21 burfday. going back to work place to celebrate for him. plus get my pay. and BF have been cfm starting work next monday at Jurong area. 1 month 440. ok de la BF. better den going to sch with pocket money and no extra money right dear? at least u still got 22 per day ((: BF, work will nv be easy outside. rmb when u step out of de society. u nid gun to protect urself. u already have 1 which is ur studies. after this attachment. u will have 2 which is experience. if its a tough 1. NVM dear. its only 3 months. after this 3 months. u will noe hw to handle tough. dong ma?

dont worry about our relationship going blend or so on. this period i will gambateh de. i promise i wont add on ur tiredness after work. and stress b4 slp. coz i noe de ache. as im having. ya but i belive wat u say this time. hope things really will improve.

BF! GAMBATEH for u attachment ((:

Solved

2008-05-18T09:39:00.002+08:00

finally settle my stupid blog problem. if not keep nid to wait den post will be out.

weather super hot nowadays. YAWNS..
im addicted to Kapibarasan and mcgriddles right nw )):

watching doreamon to shoo away my boredness. im feeling so so so dam sian recently. hais.

luckily theres afew ppl cheering me up.

9 in the afternoon

2008-05-15T20:57:00.002+08:00

YAWNS~ 9AM-6PM today. not really tired. but physically abit. still alright. BF fetch me off work ((: vesak day coming. time for my vegetarian food. i guess my last vegetarian food was last yr? LOL

just had fish n chips and fried oyster. while bf have chicken chop. sometimes i just really wish tat im already a big fat woman. so i wont have any worries with food and getting fat.

theres something just kept trapping inside my mind. hope after this blog. i can get de cfm thing and ans of wat am i feeling uneasy about.

sometimes i just feel tat my BF is just so simple. simple tat any girl can just looks nice to him. or mayb watever he say he totally have no meaning of wat im thinking off? its like in this world. woman/girl to him looks average. he dont have any ideal woman or specific kind of girl he prefer. no matter face look sharp or round. he is still ok with it. its like he see happy. means is equal to nice. tat make me sometime very messy. and stupid me always trying to look good and nice to him. but just simply catch no attention. its like he can even say a short pants and t-shirt girl looks pretty. just trying to look presentable for him. but its like i just simply dont have to. which sometimes makes me super sians.

its like i so wish to noe wat kind of specific girl he really will get attracts to. so i can take caution when we r out? =x lols i dunno? its like all kind of ladies he oso will look at. esp i see those XMM he just like to see? or mayb bcoz of his BG. i always thinks he prefers XMM. coz only XMM like he this kind of guys. i just couldnt get de point of whether he is looking at girls or not. and keeps bothering me.

i just couldnt pull myself to trust him totally. wats rong with me. and im tired of it frankly. i hate wild guessing game already. or mayb of wat he did to me b4. makes me having phobia?

alright its 9PM nw. off to get some game to release my stress and tiredness. CYA

Yesterday

2008-05-14T08:35:00.002+08:00

i simply love every yesterday ((: coz till this very moment. i'm very sure he is still with me. but next moment anything will just happen.

it always happen.. this moment we r smiling happily. next moment quarrel. each time our quarrel happens. it get worser and worser. tat we typically ignore each other. its scary BF. i dont this treatment anymore pls. pls treat me constantly. pls be true to me.

our honeymoon over le. so nw kinda adept to each other already. sometimes action kinda harsh. but i noe BF wont hurt me physcially. but he always play with my mind ><

but been tgt for 5 months le. i wont gambateh de. coz i noe my love for u is DAM HARD to fade. wont force myself to love u. coz its simply too natural loving u ((:

WOOHOOOOO!!! yesterday off work at 3PM. now company providing FOOD! LA MIAN! xD we can eat MENU items for our staff meal already! WEEE.. had salad and a tamago yesterday ((: and its TAKURO last day at work yesterday )): no more PORN shop song. no more NUTZ calling. hahas! he is going bak to japan tml. 15MAY. i guess my work place going to turn to AH TIONG shop. LOL!! and monica coming back after 23rd. coz she's going overseas to relax. and most of my work mates leaving end of july. )):

i wont leave so fast. coz i still have contract going on. and de pay is kinda high even though job scope is hard. but will GAMBATEH! trying to stay away from those politics. den my stay there will be better (:

and today is OFF day. of coz is BF's day. so got to off to prepare. ((:

Quizzy

2008-05-11T08:57:00.002+08:00

im bak! im full of energy right nw ((:
everything is over! YAYS. this few days was super disaster. but things turn out fine TODAY! ((: and of coz will be better everyday.

since last yr i've do this kind quiz. ((:

1.At what age do u wish to marry ?
- 25 (:

2.What do you want the most now?
- stable career and last long with BF ((:

3.Who is the person you trust the most?
- myself (:

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
- nope )):

5. If you have a dream to come true, what would it be?
- unlimited happiness with BF

6. Do you believe in seeing rainbow after the rain?
- not everytime hav thou

7. What is your goal for this year?
- be happier next yr ((:

8. Do you believe in eternity love?
- after i met him. i do belive

9. Do you think you look good?
- normal lo

10. What feeling you love the most?
- being HAPPY (:

11. What feeling you hate the most?
- being dull and stress!! makes me grow pimples >=((

12. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours
- ya

13. Do you believe in God?
- sort of *hmm

14. What do you think is the most impt thing in your life?
- love, health and money of coz (:

15. Who do you hope to be always there for you?
- myself (:

16. Whose your best friend?
- lilian and melinda. even thou lost contact le coz all have their own things to bother right nw. but they r still my besties (:

17. Who care for you the most?
- dad and BF of coz

18. If given a choice to stop the time, when will you want it to be?
- 8th of DEC 07 ((:

19. Do you believe there is fate and it's destined or it is the path you chose?
- both lei! fate more ba (:

20. Do you believe love at first sight?
- tats crush la! love needa build up. tats wat i belive

Starting time: 9.34AM

Name: Hazel
Sister: -
Brother: U Kang
Shoe Size: 6
Height: 1.55CM =.=
Where you live: center

Favourite drinks?
- shud say is plain water? coz i drink tat most of de time x=

Favourite breakfast?
- toast and egg (:

Have you ever been on a plane?
- uh huh

Swam in the ocean?
- MAD! no x=

Fallen asleep in school?
- my fav activity =x

Broken someone's heart?
- shud be

Fell off your chair?
- always x=

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?
- ALWAYS!

Saved e-mails?
- saved sms more

What is your room like?
- MESSY!

What's right beside you?
- television x=

Ever had chicken pox?
- yeaps

Like picnic?
- yes! i love sun!!

Who was the last person you danced with?
- KANGKANG x=

Last made you smile?
- BF kisses (:

You last yell at?
- kangkang x=

Today did you talk to someone you like?
- not yet! he still being pigpig!

Kiss anyone?
- ya

Get sick?
- of coz got de la *faint

Talk to an ex?
- ya.

Miss someone?
- yes. BF

Eat?
- Hello panda and milo x=

Best feeling in the world?
- being love

Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
- ya (:

What's under your bed?
- air!

Who do you really hate?
- i dun hate ppl. its tiring

What time is it now?
- 9.40AM

Randoms:

Q:Is there a person who is on your mind right now?
- yes. tats SIN JUN WEN!

Q:Do you have any siblings?
- yup

Q:Do you want children?
- ya!! i love them

Q: Do you smile often?
- i LUFF often! HAHAS

Q: Do you like your handwriting?
- neh! sucks

Q: Are your toenails painted?
- no. couldnt be bother. nid to work. ended up will be cracked painted.

Q: Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in?
- BF's. his bed is super comfy alright!

Q: What colour shirt are you wearing?
- blue? pajamas thou x=

Q: What were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
- resting

Q: I can't wait till?
- age of 25 (:

Q: When did you cry last?
- yesterday )): hurts

Q: Do you have any pets?
- No. but i and BF intend to have hamsters again

Q: Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
- home. OAR OAR-ING

Q: Did the last person you held hands with mean any to you now?
- of coz. he is de meaning of nearly everything.

Q: Do you sleep with the TV on?
- no. never. electricity so ex nowadays.

Q: What are you doing right now?
- keep looking at my fone and doing this.

Q: have you ever crawled through a window?
- ya. when im at my old hse. dad always forget to bring keys. so end up i got to climb thru window to open door.

Q: can you handle the truth?
- prefer den lies

Q: are you too forgiving?
- not really if is lies.

Q: Are you close to your mother or father?
- father obviously. he is simply dear to me

Q: Who was the last person you cried in front of?
- shud be BF.

Q: How many person can you say you've really loved?
- 2 i suppose. BF isnt counted. coz im still loving him (:

Q: Do you eat healthy?
- NO! x=

Q: Do you still have pictures of you and your ex?
- nope.

Q: Have you ever cried because of something said to you?
- always x=

Q: How often do you go to church?
- i dont go church right nw. but when im small i go every sunday. or shud say everyday? coz my kingdergarden is a church

Q: If you're having a bad day, who are you likely to go to?
- being alone or BF.

Q: Are you loud or quiet most of the time?
- loud LOL!

Q: Are you confident?
- yes but not very.

skins

2008-05-04T15:10:00.002+08:00

Yesterday woke up around 7 again! running nose all de way. ate medicine and went bak to slp till 12. got to BF hse. stupid MRT got faulty at TPY. 20mins delay. humpf*

reach BF place around 1.30PM. BF dabao MAC for his lunch. i totally no appetite so didnt eat. only BF feed me some fries den i eat. den around 4 plus left his hse head to SUNTEC.

had lotsa of munchies. AUNT ANNS, DONUT FACT, GYOZA and DINNER! x= WAH LUA EH i tell u guys. this stall name JUST NOODLES serving really can say POWER. i order gyoza set and BF had fried chicken 1. and was like de side dish was CHICKEN SKIN!!!!

PROVE!

wah lua i couldnt imagine they can save cost till like this! AND SMELLY BF ATE 2 OF IT! *faint* and u noe wat! when BF went to settle de bill, de waitress asked me. " this dish, erm not nice?" den i was like LOL? its was chicken skin alright mam. hw u expect US to eat it down! u think chicken leg skin? TATS TOTALLY DIFF LA! PIANG * bang head*

after de dinner i was like totally MADNESS. so walked to bugis and SHOP! problem is i forget to bring money out. good and mad thou. BF got to foot everything. really THX BF. but good thing is. resist my shopping spree! so wednesday ima gona bring him for his craving. ((:

hais 1 thing i was super super sad was. MY BF LUFF AT ME WHEN I BANG ONTO GLASS! hais. u noe girls. sometimes u just got to face it u noe. u cant always rely on ur BF. hais whos fault lei? not BF of coz. ITS DE KUKU HAM HAM! TMD HAMSTER. i make sure i roast u into MINI HAMPY PIE!

and off home around 9 ((: im craving for long john skin on potato chips right nw! ROAR!!!

I LOVE MY BF! HOR! NO SNATCHING! =P _l_ i love u bf

Misunderstandings

2008-05-03T07:40:00.002+08:00

yesterday was terrible. misunderstandings keep occuring. till im totally lost and bodyache. just couldnt describe de pain.

actually intended to slp and forget about it. but i can really feel a super huge stone pressing against my chest. its like i wanna cry out without a sound. just keep aching and tearing.

BF left me all along for half a day. was terrible. we had endless quarrels and misunderstanding. he was being stubborn for not calling me. i was being stupid waiting for him to call. both of us didnt giv up our stubborness till midnight. altough we always quarrel. but hahas. we dont quarrel over a day. theres always good and bad day de la. if always good. i think we wont noe wat is GOOD already. (: with BF de love and softness given by him. i bet myself couldnt resist from being tgt with him.

he is really de best of de best in my heart. de nicest and most understanding BF.

BF, 1 day without ur "MUACKS" i just couldnt go to bed. im too use to ur night kisses. 1st i would like to apologise to ur grandpa for cooking my dinner and i didnt turn up. 2nd i wanna apologise to u. BF, sry for not trusting u. sry for doubting u.

也许是越在乎
越会彼此的伤害
这样的爱情
又算是什么

BF, i will handle with this problem of mine. Im sry. I love u very much bf. very much ...

close minded

2008-04-30T19:25:00.002+08:00

YAWNS! tired after work. not enuff staff today. 5 of us to run the show. busy yup busy. tml oso going to die too. but luckily im working 9-3. no body gona snatch places in bus tml morning with me xD coz its a public holiday. only poor thing like us. SERVERS nid to work. but i dun mind actually. $$$ sake.

yesterday was still ok. watched forbidden kingdom. 2/5 sushi! i dun like de show. and find it kinda boring. plus cathay confiscated my COOKIE. >=( and yesterday was a super moody day. tuesday day blues ~_~ bought 4 pair of socks and 2 t-shirt for myself. and 1 polo T for BF. i noe he likes it (: and i'm happy.

i guess i will have lesser off day. so i can have more money and no nid to budget myself. 2nd, let BF have more time for himself. and i think i nid to be more open minded right nw. and i will i guess.

well, i guess i got to control BF lesser and be more not so easy jealous. like, let him do his things freely without letting me noe. no nid to accompany me so often and etc. or shud say is time to let go and let him walk himself. cant keep holding his hands while walking. he is growing up. cant keep tieing. and im gona promise myself. TARGET! within a month or LESS. im gona cancel my temper OFF my character list. i dont wan this skill anymore.

and nowadays i keep seeing couples. as in guys have rather funny taste. and those lucky girls didnt cherish de those GOD like guys. so does guys. didnt cherish rare LADYS oso.

WAT HAPPENING TO THIS WORLD. ~_~

Life

2008-04-29T07:14:00.002+08:00

PHEW. today off. but i just get off my body alarm and slp till de time i want. ROAR! going to BF hse 1st later on. den off for shopping SPREE!! COZ GSS IS HERE! MUAHAHAS *cover mouth* and today is BEN and JERRY DAY! FREE ICE CREAM!! [ im a typical singaporean ] =X

working life nw kinda smooth. family oso kinda smooth. the thing bothering me is my WEIGHT and LOVE life and BODY health.

okok say weight 1st. KNS LA. i sweat and cut down on food ah. still TMD FAT! *girls will nv agree 1 day tat they r skinny anyway xD

LOVE ah. still rocky lor. but always muz BELIVE! coz i belive in true love. and i belive i've met true love. but handling wise. im still super confused. hw to stop things or control things.

BODY. days r coming nearear. and i'am scared. PRAYS*

BF!!! chou bf! nv UPDATE blog again. U TMD x=

MSN

2008-04-27T19:07:00.001+08:00

(:
quarreling about LOW CUT dress. and BF got me this. even thou is wacky. but i love it ((:

thx BF. you're de greatest BOY i ever met. (:

~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
TMD I SAY THIS ONCE AND FORALL HOR
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
U PLZ LISTEN PROPERLY
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
U IN MY HEART IS THE MOST PRETTIEST
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
U IN MY HEART ALWAYS WON OTHER
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
PLZ LA
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
DUN LIDDAT SAY LIAO CAN
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
ALWAYS DOUBT ME
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
ALWAYS DOUBT MY HEART
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
EVEN U ARE DUO PRETTY DUO UGLY
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
I ALSO WONT LET U WEAR
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
COZ I SELFISH ON MY GF
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
CAN BO?
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
CAN BO!?!?
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
I WOULD NEVER XIAN YOU SHORT
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
NEVER XIAN YOU FAT
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
NEVER XIAN YOU UGLY
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
NEVER XIAN YOU NO FIGURE
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
NEVER XIAN YOU THIS AND TT
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
COZ I NOE
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
DEEP IN MY HEART
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
YOU ARE DE PERFECT 1
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
ALTHOUGH SOMETIMES I GOT SAY
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
BUT IS NOT FROM MY HEART
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
YOU ARE ALWAYS PERFECT IN MY HEART
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
TTS Y I DUN WAN SHARE THIS PERFECTION TO OTHERS
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
CAN MAH!?!?
~俊文~ (¯`•¸·´¯)不能轻易放弃，否则对不起自己.(¯`·¸•´¯) <3 GF says:
CAN ANOT?

Crazy

2008-04-27T13:58:00.002+08:00

MUAHA! so hot recently. i can feel my computer and lappy heat right nw. BF currently buying his own species food for his lunch. and finally got my pay ((:

and stupid MENSES going to be over. double joy! yesterday discussing about armpit hair with BF! LOL =X he is BAD. ): im gona let ppl flame his chicken voice soon. =X

went out with his during night time to slack around. PS basketball. long john dinner. parklane LAN. i simply enjoy his presence.

BF! i will nv nv get bored of u OK. how can u ever bored me darling. ur GUAI LAN-ness. ur WEN ROU-ness. always makes my mood up and down. how can i be BORED.

[BAD NEWS] hais, just got 1 stupid sms made me not very happy. gone [BAD NEWS]

Poot Poot

2008-04-25T07:29:00.002+08:00

yesterday tummy rreally hurts. so left work place at 1 instead of 3. MR NICE BF came to fetch me. bringing me two munchies and 1 chocolate. thanks BF.

had develop our fotos out. finally had done so. its in my MUST - DO - IT list kinda long already. bcoz of PMS mine side of couple ring cracked. T_T really nid to get a new 1 asap. heart brks
today is pay day. wee! another 9-3 shift. tonight going BF place for dinner. alright got DABIAN feeling. yesterday got LUFF by BF bcoz of contispation again.

BF i love u

没有你以后

2008-04-23T21:19:00.002+08:00

没了吗? 我不知道.

keep vomiting this few days. previously knock dao chest. and today work halfway. stupid menses came. mood very down.

BF. take care of urself.

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都忘了
这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由
谁还记得爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口
过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

roller coaster

2008-04-23T07:28:00.002+08:00

my love right nw is simply a roller coaster.
had chocolate cookies and honey for breakfast.

theres a new show name 命重注定我爱你. its very nice. worth watching too (:
today working 9-3. have 2 more days to go to end of my this week working. not reeally tired la. just wanna sleep late tats all. ):

and my love life. hmm, i think most properly is half of it is my fault? i really really hope things will get better.

* God i really love my BF alot alot. pls let this end asap. i just wan a VERY simple love life. Amen.

yesterday my lovely BF came to fetch me off work. he got me honey drink. AND! de honey drink GOT ALOT OF ANTS inside when he make it for me! and he seeve off all de ants. and nw its in my TUMMY. its like drinking corinne! xD but i really dun mind. coz BF effort (: he bought my craves. SUBWAY COOKIES! and a cute handfone strap with 夫人 de words. VERY NICE RIGHT. and most important is, he bought me back de earring i lost previous day. he go shopping alone at orchard just to buy me things.

BF i really appreciate it so so much. BF, we really muz jiayou hao ma. its not easy to walk to here le. im sorry. but i will be strong! i wan to be ur girl. ur only girl. and i wan u by my side forever. i love u BF

Giving in

2008-04-21T21:20:00.004+08:00

after reading his blog. i guess i've made my mind super clear right nw. i finally had those kind of fishing feeling.

placing a bait into de sea waiting for fish to be caught. its like no matter is small bait or big bait. if de fish is hungry or wants to. u will get de fish. theres no such thing as big bait big fish small bait small fish. i oso belive in suitable bait for suitable fishes. and u will even get no fish. de patience u gave, ending up is nth. de effort u place ended up empty. i think this is de best time to define my feeling right nw.

i belive every relationship isnt smooth during de start. its defintely will be rocky. we quarrels to get better argue to know each other well. im started to know BF well right nw. and right nw. i guess i really nid a pause. im very lost. i've nv been so lost b4. i wan this relationship so much. i nid him so much. and somehow. why why. i couldnt define clearly right nw.

im losing confident in this relationship already. 好想哭

my love for you

2008-04-21T07:29:00.002+08:00

YAWNS! nid to go work soon. had my usual breakfast. coffee and biscuits ): boring =X

yesterday was great great greatx10! morning had a lil tiff with BF. but after tat was alright. met at TPY for kfc. i had oriental salad. and he have 2 piece meal. den off to some arcade. den shoo off to BF hse mac.

his place MAC machiam LAN shop la. every1 using lappy. some even play audition =.= and nowadays alot of ang mohs with local girls. hais. we had two cup of tea and chat for nearly an hr. den up to his hse. finally saw his DAJIE de BF. and his whole family is out. so we slack around till 7.30PM den off to novena for BK!

AND WHAT DE HELL LOR. CHOU BF nv see coupon! coupon EXPIRE liao! OSO BU ZHI DAO! =X hao la is my fault. * giggles

after tat we go str8 home le.
went up bus 131. theres was so many ppl la. BUT! i found sit. and this malay girl sat beside me. coz BF card cannot scan. DEN! i move out to another sit. DEN she follow me! =.= so BF went to sit at de usual sit 1st den i move over. SOO! he is INSIDE. and im out.

MUAH HAHA! so i started to SEX CHANGE! im a MAN and he is de GIRL. SO DAM LAME LUHS. in de end i lose =.= coz he still de tall and muscle man X= *feel like vomitting! =X

BF!!! WO TAI AI NI LER. qi shi wo ler. always BULLY ME! CHEEE CHEE BI BI!

OMG! feel like DABIANING. =P

退后

2008-04-19T23:11:00.004+08:00

Jay having new song. and its nice (:

千山万水

sometimes i feel so lonely and neglected. hais. emo filling all over me again.

Sigh*

让你逃亡又让你回航　
让你依赖我也让你倔强

我让你飞翔又让你说谎　
我让你苛求我也让你奢望
我还以為爱
就是要体贴的退让

sometimes things is just so so so hard to explain. its just so profile. tat you just simply couldnt say nor show it out. de only thing is only to stay quiet and tear.

i've nv had this kind of feelings b4. wat happen

太绝对的爱变成了活该　
朋友要我责怪我却只想重来
也许这就叫爱

just nw went to bugis with family and ros. ate ICEY KEREM. as usual my fav. " UNCLE MIX! " i just loves classic ((:

den dad was eating ripple and feeding didi~ he dropped 1 bite. and i was like =.=

ME: " daddy u how old liao =.= still can drop ice cream "

DAD: " u noe wat is de difference between a 50 yr old and a 3 yr old eating ice
cream? "

ME: " got difference meh? "

DAD: " 3 yrs old drop le will pick it up and eat again. 50 yrs old drop le wont pick up and eat again la "

ME: " =.= "

okok its simply super lame. walk around bugis. and this particular SHOE in this particular SHOP. IM ATTRACTED! and its 90 bucks! any1 gonna buy for me? *blinks*

muah haha~ ate yakkun. YUM* and i drop de chair x= whole family tot was DIDI who dropped it X= and whole bugis crowd eyes was on me =.=

went to arcade. dad FORCE me to buy tokens and wants us to play. so i got 5 dollars tokens. 4 on catching stupid toy. 1 on basketball. *FUN ((:

nobody wanna let DIDI to play at de fountain. so ME this WEI DA de jiejie sacrifice herself putting down her bag hugging him and lead him to de fountain of SPLASHING water. i cant imagine a 20 yr old girl wearing nicely playing at de fountain with a 2 yr old kid X= i was so wet at my bottoms after tat =.= and this DIDI of mine still always bully me T_T *pats myself

and right nw i just wanna keep adding WISHLIST la. my wish isnt coming true T_T

i nid more STRENGTH! so i can work more earn more! MUAH HA. BYE X=

Dreams

2008-04-19T10:05:00.002+08:00

today i got BIANBIAN! humpf! if not let BF luff again.

yesterday worked 9-3~ SUPER tired! YAWNS. body ache and backache. menticulous BF brought his own made honey for me and fetches me off work. he is really really so nice. unlike my those previous ex. finishes work still wanna quarrel with me. well, its past! ((: and currently BF is my BF! so i only care about BF!

i will always rmb his loving care.

going up the bus. finding sits to tat can feed in his legs comfortably and he will always ask me about de aircon. "dear is it cold?"
made me lie on his comfort chest scratching my back making me into slp.

in the movie theatre. 1st qns from him. " dear is it cold? " and he will always offered his warm palms to me and rub it warm. even tat when i can sense tat he is cold. he still made de effort to rub himself warm just for me. when i sneezes, he will always use his bare hands and wipe of my nose. *even though always theres nth* well, not every guy will do tat!

till nw he still loves to hit my forehead xD BF, i loves de way u say "baby" into my ear. and i loves de way u hug me. coz u CHOU CHOU de! HEHE

kiss me goodbye

2008-04-17T22:07:00.002+08:00

WA!! so fast two days past le T_T

went to meet sheila at 12 today! went shokudo to visit awhile. den slack around MS. den went to PS with BF at 3 plus. to finish our tokens at arcade. and with 1 bucks i caught a couple stich ^^ BF got de girl and i keep de boy ((:

BF
BF, always words couldnt come out from my mouth. always i dunno hw to express my love for u. so i like to do lil lil things to show it out. im indeed a very sensitive girl. but im urber sensitive towards u. im always unfair to u. doing silly things making u angry. finding useless topic to quarrel about. whenever i think tats gona end. u build up another path for me to go on.

i always likes to find unhappy things and lead to quarrel. but whenever i pick a fight. u will always calm me down. explaining things to me. even though i say i cant take it. but actually ur softness really melts me BF.

BF, im crying when im typing this. BF... ur love towards me really touches me. i noe ur honeymoon is already up. i noe u r not tat sensitive to me anymore. but i noe u still cares for me. but im so worry. im so so worry.

BF, 你懂吗. BF, 你好帅. im really not good at words. so i can only stupid stupid de show u actions telling u. BF I LOVE YOU.

Kiss Me Goodbye

Even though you are lost, the door is open.
Aren't you satisfied with the world of just two of us?

Because I give you wings, please believe me and you will be okay to fly.

Kiss me good-bye, love is memory
Even though I lose you

Because the loved memory changes to strength
even though everybody fall in love looking for a definite thing,

the love that does not shake is inside myself

Kiss me good-bye, goodbye
I will change to a new me

Kiss me good-bye, love is memory
If we change to a new us

Kiss me good-bye, I will not cry
Because I was able to love you
Because I was able to love you

dinner

2008-04-16T18:40:00.002+08:00

right nw at BF hse blogging. and he is behide me pinching my FATS!

having dinner over at his hse. his YEYE * grandpa cooking fried chicken, vege and fishy. he say he dun always get fried chicken. but everytime i come oso got fried chicken lei. HUH BF. WHY AH? i tot recently ur grandpa just cook fried chicken? dun hav meh! kuku u!

went for de 2 hrs job this morning. machiam having picnic la today. once i reached there. DONG HAI gave me a cup of coke. xiaohan come pass me a cup cake. PICNIC la. finish opening at 1015. coz MONKEY do some of de stuff for me. next working day will be friday lo. SIANS =.=

ALRIGHT! BYEBYE

CHOU DEAR X=

6 in the morning

2008-04-16T06:56:00.002+08:00

the problem with slping too early and couldnt wake up late ~_~

slept b4 11pm yesterday. and woke up at 6.30am today! kaos =.= nid to go bak to work place for 2 hrs work. since can earn 14bucks! well, i got no reasons to reject. i still earn bak my bus fare ((: better den staying home be pig. MUAH HAHA oso nid some cash la x= and my GM is simply BIAST! well, he is BIAST la xD couldnt say out de reasons here. unless u coming my place to work! den i will tell u =X

and my fren XY leaving this company soon! AWW! i will miss her badly. my 1st day. PLENTY to talk to her till nw liao. mayb leo and gemini compatibility ba xD. next week ima gona chiong bak de hours i lost this week. argh well. actualli cant say chiong bak x= i nid to earn earn EARN!! truely speaking this work place job scope ah. 1st day nono shud say 1st week u sure couldnt take it. but after tat actualli u will like de job scope. bcoz u learn more and more things le. tats why my work place alot of leos and geminis x= !! LOL

i wanna pull some of my frens over. but i wonder if they wants to ~_~ pay higher. more job scope. but time kinda easy to past. hais but my two boss leaving. so is gona be Tong Hai Wanton Mee le.! ~_~

yesterday as usual finish at 3. reach home around 4. didnt go to nap. trying to micro oven my PIZZA! but COULDNT. tat kuku micro oven is SPOILED! toot dad. i wasted 30mins looking at de pathetic pizza. den i cook maggie makan. an hr later went up to granny hse for dinner.

and this CHOU me kinda cold to BF. sry BF. i started ur wild guessing game again. tats de smelly fart of me la. is tired le, but dun wan rest. den LUN dao temper come out. =.= but tat time was like 7 plus. i dun like to nap for de time. i WILL die in de MIDNIGHT! LOL X= and this few days keep having strange dreams. *shake head*

and i tell u all ah! b4 bed. Hong Jun Yang called me X= ok la is SIN JUN WEN. sang Guardian Angel and hong me to bed. his wen rou-ness always soften me. and de way he sings is. ARGH! IM MELTING. next time i tou tou record X= okok FRANKLY speaking its really nice ^^ not bcoz he is my BF ah. and de way he call me CHOU dear. OMG. so act cute la X=

BF! u very long nv ask about ur JIZEL. WATS DE PROBLEM WITH U! SON OSO DUN WAN LIAO ISSIT! u CHEE CHEE BI BI!
BF will u blame me if i leave this world without letting u noe?

P.S CHOU DEAR X=

一路上有你

2008-04-14T21:17:00.005+08:00

random blog! coz alot of things happen~ ^^

is at Central #02-76
picture of my workplace~

friday YAK KUN randomness

im gona show u a 1mil plus condo. de owner is super stingy plus fussy! abit this and tat oso can. and this hse of hers is super special. coz only SHE have balcony. coz her dad noes de guy who own this place/condo. so special request.

view from balcony

i think this is de nicest throughout de whole hse xD

closer view. those crystals are swarovski. cost $18 per piece. those on de wall cost her near 6k =.= *hais rich ppl

her living room

a so call study room. but theres nth only a pen and pencil.

her masterbed room chair. is real nice man!

view from kitchen

bathroom.
actualli overall its isnt nice la.

my dear DIDI!!

heres a video of him.
XIAO KANGKANG

SUNDAY

muah hahahas! SUNDAY was great! whole day with BF. went ps to settle my cravings for japan curry. his meticulous lead us found a 4 sitter at PS foodcourt! can u just imagine finding sits at peak weekend hour? i <3 u BF.

slack at MOS

he always say this face looks pretty. hais. obviously he is lying. LOL

even though night time theres some misunderstanding. but hais! my fault la. over react! T_T and to his meticulous again! and holding on. we got ok tat night. after tat accompany him to wait for taxi and i off to home to slp.

today actually work 9-6. but over tired and stress. i requested to go home early. so end up is 9-3. really body couldnt take it la. but bcoz of money sake i muz gambateh lor! tml as usual 9-3. always cant get to see de new guy. but watever! HAHAS. kiara is off to japan. at least after lunch peak hr i can do some of her job to slack my time off! ((: den wednesday and thursday off. u guys shud noe wat is de time for ^^Y

BF just finishes sch. think he reaching home soon. his com is dead due to his sister fault. xD. alright of i go to wait for his call.

BF SIN JUN WEN

DEAR. i noe i seldom calls u tat. always giving u name. but u noe u r dear to me (: its really isnt easy walking on this path. big stones heavy rocks every where. you're right. god made this to know each other better. i always said. i thanks for god for giving u to me. if happen u leave me. i will blame god for giving and taking away. even though i know life its this way. GOD gives a life and a take life.

but i do belive in hard work and patience. always lead to success. among all my BFs. u have de most unique kind of love and patience given to me. i really loves de way u sing guardian angel. 2 reasons. 1 is bcoz u sing really well, such high pitch but u didnt run tune x= 2! u r really my angel.

the way u kiss,
the way u hug,
the way u guchied me,
the way u angry with me,
the way u smile to me,
the way u pamper me,
the way u dote me,
the way u cheer me up,
the way u wait for me no matter how late i am,
the way u pamper me b4 bed,
the way u dote me when am in pain,
the way u always stay up late for me,
the way u always waste ur time on me,
and many many more. most important is,
the way u love me.

i really loves u BF!
u r my dear, yes.
u r my darling, yes.
u r my dardar, yes.
when a person is name as a BF. is like offically being called. being a BF isnt easy. but u r really my BF. BOYFRIEND. MY 1 and ONLY BOYFRIEND.

this is for you~
一路上有你

你知道吗爱你并不容易
还需要很多勇气
是天意吧好多话说不出去
就是怕你负担不起
你相信吗这一生遇见你
是上辈子我欠你
是天意吧让我爱上你
才又让你离我而去
也许轮回里早已注定
今生就该我还给你
一颗心在风雨里
飘来飘去都是为你
一路上有你苦一点也愿意
就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你痛一点也愿意
就算这辈子注定要和你分离
你知道吗爱你并不容易
还需要很多勇气
是天意吧好多话说不出去
就是怕你负担不起
你相信吗这一生遇见你
是上辈子我欠你
是天意吧让我爱上你
才又让你离我而去
也许轮回里早已注定
今生就该我还给你
一颗心在风雨里
飘来飘去都是为你
一路上有你苦一点也愿意
就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你痛一点也愿意
就算这辈子注定要和你分离
一路上有你苦一点也愿意
就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你痛一点也愿意
就算这辈子注定要和你分离
一路上有你苦一点也愿意
就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你痛一点也愿意
就算是只能在梦里拥抱你

BF! 真的好爱你

scanning

2008-04-12T11:36:00.003+08:00

scanning thru my lappy. after so long since i last scan it xD

FINALLY! off day =DD two S off day! YIPPEEE! didi coming bak TONIGHT! double JOY! and job place stressing me! and im tempting for buffet! BUFFET! sobs. i guess only buffet can cheer me up! coz EATING RELEASE STRESS!!

how can i be with some1 who only loves himself. mouth isnt for u to talk about love when u r not even rdy.

think of bigger picture

2008-04-10T19:53:00.002+08:00

hmm, so fast i've work for 3 days ler. so far still alright ba. super tiring. job scope isnt easy. muz really remember alot alot of things. but ya. think of de bigger picture always ((: even though sometimes felt really helpless. feel like hiding in de toilet and cry. and today i nearly faint off. luckily was at store room. den str8 away stuff de sweet into my mouth and continue working.

lincoln got into tekong for his 1st day of army life. jiayous o. 1 yr later shall be BF turn. and jankin migrating for Melbourne soon. and right nw im still worrying for my Os lvl english. no time to study oso. *i think is i too lazy*

tml is another day 9-6. as usual solo opening. but mus jiayous lor. den saturday and sunday off ler. 3 more months to go. really have no idea wat will happen tml. hair bothering. hais. ohh bother ~_~

one love

2008-04-08T21:10:00.002+08:00

just got home after work. BF went to fetch me. thx bf. ur supportive smses. ur warm and caring voice makes my day brighten up. was kinda tough. 1 person doing 2 to 3 person job. even though is tiring. but for de sake. i muz gambateh. why ppl able to take it why cant i? JIAYOUS HAZEL.

well, sometimes i just couldnt understand. i really dont. i changes, i improve. but why am i still hurting myself. sometimes i just on music loudly and cry. i feel so much better after tat. i save, i go hungry. just to have a good meal with u. i can go hungry for tml. i dont mind. coz i just wanna spent some time with u on something.

im really stress. im really tired. bills haven settled yet. and this job kinda drives me crazy. no words can describe de job scope. after a tiring job. noeing bf is there to fetch me. i shud be happy. but im not. i force myself to smile. but just couldnt. its pain i just couldnt say it out why. i really dunno why.

BF
if u really feeling tired. bored. sick. unhappy. stressing daily. im ready to let u go. just let me know when. i dont mind. i rather let u go. coz i noe u will be happy. at least i wont get reply saying tat ur feelings for me is fading off or so.

i really do love u very much. tat i sacrifice everything just for u. i willing to endure everything and (: just for u. just for u. whatever i do, does. is just only for u.

cherry blossoms

2008-04-06T23:45:00.005+08:00

yawnz! just got home. im gona make a short post coz nid to off to bed early.
went to sick doctor during morning yesterday. den off to mom place for facial~! (:

mom working corner.

den night time met dad for dinner. (:

this morning woke up! as usual some hse work. den off to praying sessions at 1pm.

their lion dance flag is super duper high. and its 1 man carry la. *pei fu

dad crapping. and we listening ><

praying ((:

picture of proof tat we did pray xD! dad's idea. and randy suggested to be like we r been awarded or so. =.= is so dam fun ^^

night time spend my time with BF, as im going to work tml.
i just love the time spending and chatting with him. and he look so handsome today. just couldnt resist myself not looking at him.

we will be better!! ((:

its not really easy

2008-04-05T08:30:00.002+08:00

woke up too early. coz going for doctor appointment. since theres time, blog a lil 1st. have found a job yesterday. still back to FnB as usual. they are paying me at $7. alot qns didnt ask. coz was too eager to noe another thing.

mom bringing me to doctor. later on going to her hse for facial.

had BF bought for me de milo for breakfast. and feeling super unwell. im really sick le. ):

reality

2008-04-04T09:50:00.003+08:00

just couldnt have a good night. we know our body de most. and my body right nw. isnt going right.

im having sweet tooth for very long already. and i think is time to quit this habit of chocos intake daily. =.= just check my BMI! im 20.3, and tats normal.
* Underweight = <18.5
* Normal weight = 18.5-24.9
* Overweight = 25-29.9
* Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater

u can check from this webby BMI WEBBY~

and i got some info actually chocos do help in acne! muah haha!
hais im passing out )):

P.S
Never take someone for granted,
Hold every person close to your heart
because you might wake up one day
and realise that you've lost a diamond
while you are too busy collecting stones....

爱爱

2008-04-03T20:45:00.003+08:00

just had a cup of white coffee. its very nice! ((: even though i shud stop caffine xD

BF mom is bak from japan!
finally after for so long. had dinner at granny hse.

theres roast pork, salted duck, steam chicken with mushroom, chilli chicken feet, fried fish with granny own made sauce, vegetarian vege and salted vege with tomato soup! WEderful meal! xD

and tml i going for a interview at 1pm! prays hard for it *amen*

and just read de newspaper. on tuesday went to PS with bf saw this ambulance driving off DG mrt. and nw on de news. this 23 yr old guy pass away while dancing on his fav past time ParaPara. he is with de gf tat day. pass away due to sudden heart stop.
Life is simply so scary.

BF says he rather live his life with mystery den knowing it. ya oso true la. at least de GUY died beside his gf and doing his fav past time oso.

this is my cutey son! name Jizel. he is born on 31st of March 2008!

saw David tao on sunday at bugis with dad. he look isnt tat bad.

OMG!? who is this guy? why is he appearing in my blog? MUAH HAHA!!
of coz muz appear la! he is de 3rd most important person to me in my life lei!
hmm, 1st is daddy. 2nd is DIDI! and den him! 3rd place isnt tat bad ah? xD

dad often ask, " girl, he not sian de meh? u so short?"
me : " black and white nice not? contrast right? so tall and short of coz muz tgt la xD "
dad : " but sometime too contrast not nice "
me : " -.-" sian* "

BF : " what is 牛扒 in english? "
ME : " beef steak la "
BF : " steak den steak la wat beef steak? *luffing like mad* "
ME : " =.= *luffing but feel so stupid* "
ME : " den 鸡扒 lei? *still luffing* "
BF : " chicken chop la *still luffing* "
ME : " den chop stick *steak* lei? "
BF : " 扒子 lor "
ME : " =.= "

P.S i love you

月老

2008-04-03T11:17:00.003+08:00

月老!! where did u go! so many love birds seperating le! 月老 why u just cant keep a pair tgt, forever?

love is standard. de more u giv, the more u wants. you will nv noe wat is de least. human tends to get greedy. they climb over ppl's head. they take each other for granted. ppl do noe wat happen. but they will nv learn their lessons. hais! zomo like this de lei.

月老 ah 月老! 希望有情人终成眷属!

Anyway, anyone nid detox? anyone having constipation? =X and look for Lilian! she's having own small lil busniess. pls do support her. she is selling some magnetism jewels too. is good for ur health. can get for some1 dear to u too. ((:

Gambateh Lilian!
Lilian Blog

And this is for dearie hsinghui.
Im so glad tat misunderstandings have been cleared between u and ur besties. rmb anything happen. do come and look for me. i will always lend u my listening ear. ((:
<3 3rd hur!

BF
bf, ty for staying by my side whenever u r able to. even though at times u r abit wack. but ur wacking attitude really brighten my days up. and i finally noe wat u have been thinking and wanting to. thx BF.

theres you every where

2008-04-02T09:02:00.004+08:00

good news! i've a monster son name JIZEL ((:

i've decided! im gona win u back! i dont care whether u r tired already or gona give me up! im gona hold on real tight and let u forget about what is "TIRED". i will always rmb wat i told myself. i gave u de jacket is bcoz i've decided to adpat to everything u do and u r! bcoz tats ur nature! i noe whenever wat i say or wat. always comes out diff. but tats me. i just loves to nag and nag! bcoz im a woman!

is not that i wanna leep calculating those Pokercards. is bcoz 我真的很在乎你. sensitive to everything u do. sensitive to anything u say. sensitive even when u just glance thru some1. i noe hw i make u feel. but trust me. u r still de 1 who shine in my heart and eyes. and rmb wat i say. watever i do or say is just to gain ur attention. strictly no harm. i just nid ur care and attention. i noe watever u do u just trying to stay out of trouble. but telling me isnt means staying out of trouble. but is letting me noe u care so much about this problem.

i noe watever u do is totally for my own good. but sometimes i over react to certain things and leaded me to losing temper. im sry. de problem with us is tat i always over react and u dont. reflecting to de past and things we do. i just couldnt deny god really plan us to be tgt. i really dont wanna lose u. heart to heart link, poker cards 4 cards, de holding on and giving in, the madness, the anger, the sweetness, the tears and most importantly no matter wat both of us did. we r still very happy being tgt.

quarrels keep coming in daily. nv 1 day get smooth for the past. but we endure for so long le. belive it and it will stable down 1 day. i noe u worrying about army, ur career, ur future. if u r willing. im totally willing to accompany u all along. "要做梦, 才会梦想成真". i will keep dreaming de. GAMBATEH HAZEL! ((:

2008-03-31T11:18:00.003+08:00

having some bad and past memories thru mind. its just keep bothering me. and im going mad already. problems keep nv ending for me. i dont think i can be tat strong anymore. im bursting soon. why i just keep hiding my own feelings. when ppl can go around emoing. but simply i just cant emo. coz i will go mad. theres just 1 2 3 4 5 6 ... etc problems going thru my mind.

had some poke cards thingy running in me right nw. somehow true. somehow sucks. and i wanna thanks BF mom for buying me those bai feng wan. BF bought me 1 box. his mom got me 6 box! LOL and BF mom is out to japan but coming back soon.

sometimes i really cant stand ur hack care feelings anymore. i nid to be pamper and be care for. which i needed most at this period. im tired of having wild guessing game with ur mind. very tired of guessing wat mind is thinking and wants. can u just tell me str8 from nw oon?

im brking down soon

我想更懂你

2008-03-30T16:25:00.002+08:00

tadah!
i really love yesterday so so much ^^~ its simply so so great. even though at night abit sad. but its bcoz im too SHA ler la! xD

and yesterday night on de way home de time. we saw 1 CHIOBU! *his type of girl* WAH I sibeh sian! but i still ask him to see =X and he got tou tou de MIAO alot of TIMES la! T.T HUMPF. den ah she alighted. WAH THANKS GOD! 1 yandao came up! LOL. of coz my turn to MIAO back =X

muah hahaha!! days coming nearer and nearer. worrys*

*in this life our love
is in our hearts to see
though people change
the future's still inside of me
we must remember that
romorrow comes after the dark
but i got something
trapped in my heart
so i got something to say
in this life our love
is in our hearts to see
though people change
the future's still inside of me
we must remember that
romorrow comes after the dark
but i got something trapped in my heart
so i got something to say

P.S you are my sweetest drug

2008-03-27T09:57:00.000+08:00

im really very tired.

i nid a rest.

star shine star bright

2008-03-26T23:44:00.003+08:00

cant stand de pain. is painful everywhere. )):

he is dreaming of her nearly every night. blessings i shall give. hatred i should remove. everythings fair. everything have its own way in getting right and rong. some advice for him already. wishes him all de best is all i can do now. (:

had milo cereal and some biscuits for dinner. just couldnt eat anything. totally not in de mood today.

nv trust guy words.

bad day

2008-03-26T08:53:00.002+08:00

having terrible pain that guys will nv ever understand! )): ate some panadols this morning, changed my and dad bedsheets and drank a cup of cereal milo *yikes*.

went up to granny hse just nw to place those bedsheets. she cried to me. why cant guys just understand wat their gf/wife have do for them. everyone noes my granny dote and love my grandpa de most. hw can she not do anything just for him? just bcoz grandpa wants it to be cook this way and he complains to everyone that granny isnt doing it for him. granny didnt cook tat way is bcoz the taste will be simply sux and tasteless. poor granny.
and some guys not even giving their partners internal pain. external pain as well. just wtf rong with this guys going on earth!? they simply can forget the things u have told them de next min. but they expect u to rmb wat to do and wat they have said. we girls isnt COOLIE okie. diaos!

i really hope i have him beside me right nw. im aching terribly. why girls just have to undergo this pain. and 9 months aching for those unfaithful and illtreats wife MAN! punish them pls! i dont nid wat torture them and stuff. just wack their pipi for 1 week. LOL! this min say still have u in de heart. next min treating u like worse den a normal fren. when u r attach he say u r flirt! LOL? guys! *shake head

BF, i really nid u very much. but u just nida go sch. seeing u stressing over FYP makes my heartache. in another side u still muz u handle me for 7 days. but sometimes u just talk less and stay by my side is more den anything already. i dont nid ur words. i just nid u, BF. ty for wanna go to work this sunday for my sake. ty for ur understandings when i throw my temper on u. others just wouldnt understand why de sake im throwing temper for. even though ur mouth always lead u to trouble. but ur heart always bring u out of trouble (: i love u BF!

2008-03-25T09:10:00.002+08:00

Yawns!! just woke up by granny and couldnt go bak to bed. yesterday went for interview. can say is a shake head ba *hais* nowadays finding job is simply so so hard. and grandpa got into hospital again =.=! his operation wound got infection.

sometimes i just so so wish tat i have a family busniess tat i could help out. and i do have a family busniess. but i cant help! is too MAN to work there. lols
having terrible stress oso. and right nw i noe who really loves me. and who dont (: and im gonna go for it!

IT simply love me every bits! EVERY bits of ME! ^^ coz IT is simply my sweetest drug! even though IT always do things making me angry and disappointed! but i noe IT dont mean it. coz ITs BLUR!!! and blur is ITs cuteness! (: ITs always bring me rainy days. but alot of sunny day too! and im getting SUNTAN! hahas! just wanna say. I LOVE YOU!

strip me naked

2008-03-21T09:38:00.003+08:00

terrible nightmare yesterday morning~ but everything got peaceful after the sunset. ((:

just had a piece of pumpkin bread for breakfast. and still planning for GOOD FRIDAY event! (: wat to do neh! wat to do neh!! hmm stupid aunty coming to visit me soon *period* pimples pimples! >=P

and im changing my blog address soon! hehe xD
* You are really a drug. and im addicted to u

- because of you

BECAUSE OF YOU

[Verse 1]
Want to but I can't help it.
I love the way it feels.
This got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real.
I need it when I want it.
I want it when I don't.
Tell myself I'd stop everyday,
Knowing that I won't

[Hook #1]
I've got a problem and I.. (don't know what to do about it)
Even if I did, I don't know if I would quit
But I doubt it. I'm,
Taken by the thought of it..(mmm mm)

And I know this much is true (mmmmm)
Baby, you have become my addiction.
I'm so strung out on you (mmmm)
I can barely move...but I like it,

[Chorus]
And, then it's all because of you (all because of you)
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you)
And it's all because of you (all because of you)
So, then it's all because...
Never get enough,
She's the sweetest drug. (Oowuuu)

[Verse 2]

Think of it every second,
I can't get nothing done.
Only concern is the next time, I'm 'gon get me some.
Know I should stay away from,
Cause it's no good for me.
I try and try but my obsession, won't let me leave.

[Hook #1]
I've got a problem and I (don't know what to do about it)
Even if I did I don't know if I would quit
[ Because Of You lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
But I doubt it. I'm,
Taken by the thought of it. (mmmm) (heeyh..)

And I know this much is true, (mmmm)
Baby, you have become my addiction.
I'm so strung out on you, (strung out on you..)
I can barely move...but I like it, (but I like it..)

[Chorus]
And, then it's all because of you (all because of you) (aey!)
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you)
And it's all because of you (all because of you)
So, then it's all because...
Never get enough (Never get enough..)
She's the sweetest drug.

[Hook #2]
Ain't no doubt.... (no doubt heayh)
So strung out. (Strung out heeayh)
Ain't no doubt....
So strung out. (heahheh!)
Over you,
Over you,(yooouuu)
Over you(yooouuu)...

[Harmonics]
(Mmouhh)

(Because of you)
(And it's all because of you)
(mm)
(Never get enough)
(She's the sweetest drug)

And I know this much is true (Truuuuue)
Baby, you (baby yoou you you you) have become my addiction (become my addiction)
I'm so strung out on you,
I can barely move...but I like it (and I like it..yeaheh..)

[Chorus]
And, then it's all because of you (aey!)(all because of you)
So, then it's all because of you (all because of you)
And it's all because of you (all because of you)
So, then it's all because...
Never get enough (Oooh never get enough)
She's the sweetest drug,

Hypnotized

2008-03-19T11:26:00.004+08:00

你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切

yesterday mood wasnt good. thx to SJ for cheering me up in no time with this video

Owe Me Ten Bucks

Yesterday whole day slacking at home, so bored ): everyone busy with own stuff accept for me!

still finding job. had just registered O lvl english. and i will work hard for it (:

had chicken rice yesterday for dinner with daddy. ate 1 and a half bowl of rice (: and midnight im still hungry! LOL

this song is great.
this song made me realise something..

离开了

这次你真的要离开了
你决定这样放手
放在心里的一些回忆
你说你不再提起

我们的爱无法继续
有人慢慢的将我代替
代替我给你幸福快乐
我舍不得又能如何

我们的爱走到谷底
没关系我会好好的
我会彻底的选择逃避
忘记你谈何容易

我和你还是站在原地
我听见哭泣的你
我已经尽了最大努力
你说你不再考虑

我们的爱无法继续
有人慢慢的将我代替
代替我给你幸福快乐
我舍不得又能如何

我们的爱走到谷底
没关系我会好好的
我会彻底的选择逃避
忘记你谈何容易

我们的爱走到谷底
没关系我会好好的
我会彻底的选择逃避
忘记你谈何容易

我和你还是站在原地
我听见哭泣的你
我已经尽了最大努力
这次你真的离开了

离开了

2008-03-18T13:25:00.004+08:00

have change the skin. problem with firefox and internet explorer really makes me crazy!
BLEAHS

if u were to use internet explorer there will be music. if u were to use firefox and u nid some sound. click play on de IMEEM ba!

stupid internet ~_~

2008-03-18T13:25:00.001+08:00

have change the skin. problem with firefox and internet explorer really makes me crazy!
BLEAHS

Crazy In Love

2008-03-18T10:37:00.006+08:00

im sick of my blogskin. and i think im changing 1 asap! (: and stupid body of my dunno why suddenly gain a kg when my intake of food is so bloody LIL! and 飞天小猪 told me is bcoz lack of slp!

yesterday walk around bugis with 飞天小猪 still couldnt find a bag tat attracts me. but yesterday dinner was great! hate yong tau fu which i think is very nice? ~_~ and 飞天小猪 had omelette curry rice with chicken chop! and two teh terik for us. THUMPS UP for de terik!

and yesterday was so so heng tat 飞天小猪 tuition teacher on MC! lols! 1st lesson mc le. clap clap! and nw i keep having this grastic juice coming onto me! yikes ~_~

Enjoy The Show =x

Without You

2008-03-17T09:14:00.004+08:00

watched hortan and sky of love recently. still prefers P.S i love you =D~
saw this necklace at bugis cart. really loves it alot alot. lilian had bought 1 for herself. its really very nice (: nid a bag asap too. my casual bag spoiling soon )):

- Can you feel my world

How do you define love?
MY ANS: Love is something that can only be experienced but can not be defined

Towards love, for me is like. give everything tat u can. ppl always say i noe hw to draw a line to my relationship. somehow for nw, i dont think tat is true. i always over de line. watever i can do or give. i just throw everything out. ending up, hurt de most is always me. even though im de 1 who wanna give up.

i always wanna be perfect. which is a "hard" thing. no1 is perfect. but i just wanna be near perfect. i just feel tat i very silly and stupid. so wat if looks fail. character defintely wins.

if she is pretty for her looks. and looks couldnt win her. den should be pretty in another side? if everything were to be compare. i will lose out 1 day. Miss Hazel!

or can i say, till this min i still dunno hw to handle love?

but is so dam true bout 1 thing. which me myself nid to agree totally. if ur heart is pretty. u will automatically be pretty on de outer. u will just see her shine! and I WANNA SHINE!!! ((:

MR SHAWJUN!! this video is DEDICATED to YOU only!! ENJOY ((:

SHAWJUN THIS IS FOR U

2008-03-16T10:45:00.002+08:00

(2個1)：你善於表達感情，面對心儀對象，往往能大膽示愛。由於你喜怒形於色，戀愛過程亦見順利。
(1個6)：你天性敏感，喜歡被別人欣賞，只有這樣，你才能感受到自己存在的價值。
(1個7)：談戀愛時，你會為對方周全考慮，失戀治療能力亦強，對人歡笑，背人垂淚
(2個8或以上)：你聰明獨立，表達能力強，有決斷能力，有領導才華，做事往往得心應手。

is just so true? if u wanna noe urs. tag ur birthday gif me ba. EXAMPLE : 1988/6/17

双子女中意的对像必须够聪明，明白在她们需要的时候出现，不需要的时候消失。个性可不能闷，陪她们聊天逛街也不会嫌烦。

IS SO SO SO SO DAM TRUE! muah hahaha~

MY GIRL

2008-03-15T18:48:00.002+08:00

I nid a makeover asap! going for facial and extreme cutting down of fats xD more stretching den CABIN CREW HERE I COME!!! muah hahaha! fren introducing me to photo suits. but im going for facial 1st. face sibeh jialat la. keep having insomnia. hw to have good skin. *roll eyes*

and nw this idiot throat is so dam itchy! *bang

P.S I just wanna be ur girl.

2008-03-14T10:47:00.002+08:00

nose keep running since yesterday. tot was gona fever. luckily everything get better this morning.

saded news going on. CABIN CREW nid to be 158cm! gif me a wall to bang pls! -.-

and i've decided to remove EMO this word off my dictionary ^^ clap* tat is a digusting word and i hate it. i will find back de happy girl i use to be. happy oso muz face it. sad oso muz face it. of coz i choose happy la! MUAH HAHA!

Li sheng jie always bring surprises. and this song rox. voice rox, lyrics rox, MUSIC ROX! xD till nw, haven meet anyone that will tell me this.

李圣杰 - 擦肩而过

我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切

站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过

我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说
你不要这么做
你不要看着我
说你已经知道怎么做

你很难受
我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛
再多坎坷我都陪你走

站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过

我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

2008-03-09T20:02:00.002+08:00

seriously, i think im having emotional breakdown soon.

grandpa admitted to hospital, HP n SCV bills keep coming in. i nid to work soon. couldnt support myself to study. dunno hw to talk to my dad about it. have no time and mental to handle everything. im very lost. can some1 bring me out?

grandpa stomach have a hole. is around 1cm long. after operation already but i still having funny feeling. i dont wanna to lose any1 right nw. i will really go mad.

P.S guide me out

2008-03-06T17:16:00.003+08:00

Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone, keep running through my head. i couldnt put the MV here.

and so stupid la. today keep running to toilet. stomach very pain. and this few days keep giddy giddy. something's rong with me. haha. >"<

couldnt download cabalsea. dunno wats rong also. mayb try tml morning ba~

alright off to do some hsework. cya!

2008-03-06T17:01:00.002+08:00

Some dedications~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=otMB3WVQNVg

I always needed time on my own
I never thought
I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years
when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart
are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know
is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
to always get me through the day
And make it ok
I miss you

I never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
are lyin' on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much
I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart
are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know
is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were meant for each other
I keep forever
I know we were
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe
I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know
is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear
to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

2008-03-03T20:47:00.002+08:00

me and alex in hotel room~

from left is roger, eric n melvin

from left is xuejuan, yew sheng and wei meng

from left is dave, nick and yuheng

me and de KUKU! =XX alex is taking foto of us. so he not inside.

mai pian prawn only 24 of them >"< *as requested

butter fish ^^ YUMMY

OUR SHOESSSS

2008-03-02T19:18:00.003+08:00

genting fotos~

jellyfish in de amazing animals tour~

my fav zhu pi giu~ ^^

cool posture~ its a racoon

cable car

from my hotel floor.

thats all i have for nw. will upload more soon ^^

2008-03-02T11:33:00.002+08:00

So fast. and im back from Genting~

27/2 night~
went over to nick hse, slack. his hse was great. is right above sun plaza. took taxi there and reach around 10 plus. alex, weimeng, yuheng, yuheng gf, yuheng didi and dave was there already. slack awhile den to yuheng hse watch BORAT. << SUPER FUNNY LA. i luff thru de whole show. * IM VERY EXCITE TO BE IN US and A!! * hahas xD

den around 2 plus change location to eric hse for ghost show. is a super lame show. melvin was at eric hse. another 3 roger, yewsheng and xuejuan is over at roger hse. around 6 cab came. and off to golden mile. and we set off at 7. bus trip was ok. slept alot. around 1 plus reach genting. check in and so on. was around 2 hr plus thing le. ate bak kut teh for lunch. kinda nice.

went bak room to unpack den off to arcade. den slack around walk around den dinner at pizza hut. midnight playing those murderer card game and water drinking and so on. very fast de 1 night gone. alot alot of laughter ^^

2nd morning we miss de free breakfast time. so we settle at kenny rogers. den some go theme park play some go slack around. but end up theme park close coz too misty. so we went down hill. cable car trip was great ^^ thx to eric and melvin ==

nth to do downhill oso. so bought ticket into de top 10 amazing animal thingy. saw my fav "ZHU PI GUI"!!! and saw ODM )): SUPER CHEAP LA. but dun suits me. so didnt buy even though D keep ask me to. coz i might regret. den night dinner settle at mushroom farm. DINNER WAS GREAT! Fried pig trotters, Fried butter fish, Fried butter prawn ==, stir fried mushroom with mince meat, kai lan, sweet and sour chicken wing, tie ban tofu 13 white rice. around mysia 254 dollars only. SUPER CHEAP!!! xD food was nice too. this 3 days super super misty la. hahas.

3rd morning settle our breakfast at de complimentry 1. oh ya GENTING ICE CREAM THUMB UP! and de coffee bean too. marry brown was shiok too =x for food genting really scammer paradise la. lol. i done last min shopping b4 saying byebye to genting at 2pm. reach sg around 9 plus le. FUN FUN FUN! lazy upload foto. alot of fotos at alex there oso. shall upload the fotos around this week ba.

((:

2008-02-27T19:15:00.002+08:00

YAWNS!!

leaving hse soon. ton over at nick hse tonight. (: this morning went to ZOO with D!!! YESH. wonderful! spent 2 hrs inside. deepest impression : ZEBRA! LOL

will update about ZOO stuff later on back from GENTING. update fotos tgt with genting trip.

after zoo settle lunch at KFC. den head to chinatown to change money, rate was high. (:

im very tired. but no idea why cant slp long. *scratch head* alright nid to repack everything and meet D le.

CYA!!! GENTING HERE I COME!

2008-02-25T22:38:00.002+08:00

YAYS!! 2 more days to genting!!

Just came bak from bugis with D. met him around 6 plus at TPY central after his revision for tml exams. den mrt to bugis. and stupid me, forget bring money out. D help me to pay 1st. THANKS D. movie L tml! ^^ and D bought me a EEYORE pillow for me to hug with during genting bus trip and hotel stay. so sweet of him (:

lots of chatting, luffing and smacking of each other (: den had dinner at long john. and home sweet home.

and some random fotos~

beautiful sunset~ on de way to uncle birthday dinner

D.I.Y Valentine card made for D. hanging on D room wall.

D valentine day present for me. also the 1 i love de most. he use chalk and salt to form it. and de bottle is by a wine name Romance. which he bought 1 for me from australia too.

The necklance hanging there was 1 of de gift too. ring crave with his and my name. (:

P.S. i love you story book. D bought for me straight when i told him that theres story book out too. and bcoz of valentine day, theres F.O.C stamps too. very very sweet and nice.

JunWen. I belive and belive. i belive of alot alot of things. and i wan these belives to come true. (:

Bless my D tml paper will be very very smooth for him. Thanks god.

2008-02-25T09:40:00.001+08:00

我不想忘记你

我在向前走却像在退后
我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

一个人不懂什么是拥有
两个人不懂怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

2008-02-24T22:30:00.002+08:00

Hehe` 4 more days off to Genting Highland ((:

actually nth special going there. but IM GOING WITH MY BOY!!! cheers ^^v and i wonder can i smuggle my pillow there >"<. this few days lots and lots of things happen. happy moments, sad moments, crazy moments. and much more.

没事 !! 微微笑一切都会雨过天晴的 =]]

halfway thru my P.S i love you story book. VERY VERY good! (: hmm` oh ya. tat day boy accompany me to informatics to ask for autocad lessons. and yeap! im attending to de lessons during MAY. so nw muz find part time job to settle myself for this two months. and right after genting trip. i nid to work for IT show` CHEERS! MONEYY!! $$$ =X

another half an hr more BOY gona finish work. and tuesday its gona be his last paper. WISHES HIM ALL THE BEST! ((: and we plan to go on zoo trip on wednesday de WHOLE DAY. den after tat go home pack stuffs and off to fren hse to stay over night~

alright eyes getting tired le. time to off com and wait for BOY to call me. ((:

P.S JunWen i love you.
P.S Good Luck for ur Tuesday Paper ((:

盘底的洋葱像我
如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心
你会鼻酸你会流泪
只要你能听到我
看到我的全心全意

2008-02-18T10:56:00.002+08:00

Just came back from breakfast with lilian. She rented a car for her outing yesterday. so asked me to accompany her for breakfast. no where to go. so settle it at tpy. as usual, has my loti set. Thanks LiLian ((:

yesterday morning was a sux morning. no mood to mention. and it makes me super despo to leave de hse. so shawjun save my life. ((: we went to PS for arcade. actually i wanna catch jumper de. but so many ppl la. den had dinner at de foodcourt. i have my spicy fish soup and he has kuay chap~ bagus!
Den walk around. saw times book store. despo dao i wanna buy de PS i love u book! even though Junwen has bought it already~
Went home around 8 plus. and got home around 9. this few night my eyes keeps itchy. qi shi wo le. so uncomfortable.

right nw feel like going swimming alone ~_~

P.S. If I ever leave this world alive
I'll thank for all the things you did in my life
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll come back down and sit beside your
feet tonight
Wherever I am you'll always be
More than just a memory
If I ever leave this world alive

2008-02-15T10:22:00.002+08:00

stupid lion dance disturbing my beautiful slp. and nw disturbing my beautiful song! >=(

14/2 VALENTINE'S DAY~

Thanks Junwen dar for de wine bottle sand. tats really lots of effort. thanks. and de necklance~ i love it very much. and you won de card creation competition (:

self cooked lunch was great xD~ watched PS i love you. GREAT GREAT movie. really replace my transformer and Cj7~ i cry de whole show la. kuku de~ makes my makeup spoiled. den we walked from PS to clarke quay for dinner~ even though de plan didnt go right. but im still contented ^^v den settle down at HOOTERS for dinner. Dinner was great. boy had pepper chicken pasta and i have butter fillet. and both of us tried clam chowder~ and those waitress wearing. really HOOTERS X= total was $59~ Boy say worth it. den worth it lo =x his eyes worth it ma =XXX SHHH! HAHA

and i wan to try de C clinic pub! YES I WAN I WAN! xDD
den we walk to fullerton den to esplande. took cab bak around 1 plus near 2.

- Yesterday my boy looks so so diff as b4. im totally attracted ((:

P.S. i love you

2008-02-10T12:52:00.000+08:00

finally some YUN DONG after cny. going swimming soon. after tat intend to surprise some1 ((:

this month is gona be very exciting. cny pass le. nw waiting for vday. den Alex's birthday. den genting trip~ contented ^^

shyt == just nw have alot of things to blog. nw suddenly like all gone. ==

2008-02-09T12:57:00.000+08:00

45 things a girl wants
but wont ask for

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her your jacket.
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her somewhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends
together.

KEEP READING

11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more,
deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her
morethan you, deny it. Fight back
and hug her tight so she can't
get to her friends, it makes her
feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say I love you
whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the
waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about
her.

One last thing you need to do to show
her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her
car- it makes her feel protected,
plus it never hurts to act like a
gentleman.
2 2. Tell her she's your everything -
only if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something
wrong, ask her- if she denies
something being wrong, it means
SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT-
so just hug her
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls
you know !!

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE
AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26. Don't lie to HER.
27. DON'T cheat on her.
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text messege or call her in the
morning and tell her have a good
day at work {or school}, and how
much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she
needs you, & even when she doesn't
need you, just be there so she'll
know that she can ALWAYS count on
you.

AR E YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER
BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT !!

31. Hold her close when she's cold so
she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close
and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK (it will
give her the hint that you want to
kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm
around her and then she will
automaticall y put her head on
your shoulder, then lean in and
tilt her chin up and kiss her
LIGHTLY.
3 5. Dont EVER tell her to leave even
jokingly or act like you're mad. If
shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE
WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISTURB her, stand up for
her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell
her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put
her head on your chest so she can
listen to the steady beat of your
heart. Link your fingers together
while you whisper to her as she
rests her eyes and listens to you.
39. When walking next to each other
grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your
arms as long as possible.

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her at night to wish
her SWEET DREAMS.
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe
away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS Remind her how much you love
her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how
much u love her and then bend
down to her face and kiss her
while sitting on her.

You'll never know when she needs
just a little bit more love

2008-02-09T11:59:00.000+08:00

; HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR!~

CNY ;
as usual routines. woke up at 7am. rdy den off to relative hse for hongbaos! =X den 6plus went to changi village for dinner den off home le.

8/2 ;
afternoon alex brought me to ikea for curtains and HOTDOG bread! ^^ i bought curtain and 2 candles. 1 for me and 1 for him. and 2 biscuits. YUMMY. on the way home de time~ we got home by KPE. de speed limit is 70km/h <<< COCK la. den alex drove at speed 90~ ICECREAM LIAO! TIO FLASH! LOL.. GONE LA~ ok as requested from him.

* 卓 * A | e x * ~ says:
alex says : 12points + $200 to make my baby hazel smile ....... [ WORTH IT ]

ty alex :)

den night time had dinner with family den off to junwen hse. played poker. and drank alcohol. dunno why yesterday i was super numb. i guess im super down recently. BIG thx to ALEX for driving me home. and really thx for de warm towel tat hurts ur hand and mouth. and PLS take care of ur knee cap. even though dunno u will read my blog ma. but still muz say TY ALEX.

nw i going for movie marathon. and i muz really say this cny sux? and not say i pandan la. every where i read. all de dragon health isnt good. like duno wat muz go body check up la, car accident la and so on and so for. den relationship as usual la. blossoms again. luck and wealth normal lo. and my nose like kena box like this. hurts sia. think is heaty liao ba.

and this pathetic CNY makes me got to 51kg. FISH de lor == hais. can someone take off my fats pls?

2008-02-01T19:43:00.000+08:00

sorry~ long post :))

真正爱你的女孩
真正爱你的女孩,虽然嘴上讨厌你说她小笨笨,可心里却很高兴.
真正爱你的女孩,在受委屈的时候总是第一个想到你.
真正爱你的女孩,在你迟到的时候责怪你,不是真的骂你,而是珍惜每一次和你在一起.
真正爱你的女孩,真的很小气,眼里容不下一颗沙粒.
真正爱你的女孩,每次生气故作没有消气,只是想听你来哄自己.
真正爱你的女孩,会陪你一起看你最喜欢的节目,即便是自己最讨厌滴.
真正爱你的女孩,总是要你慢点吃,因为怕你会有胃病.
真正爱你的女孩,会不厌其烦的规劝你戒烟,即便她知道这是不可能的事情.
真正爱你的女孩,会陪你一起打游戏,无论是不是自己喜欢滴.
真正爱你的女孩,会你收集你最喜欢的东西,因为只要你高兴.
真正爱你的女孩,不论在嘴上怎么挑剔,在她心里还是最爱你.
真正爱你的女孩,很容易被你感动,哪怕是一件极小的事情.
真正爱你的女孩,即使在能独当一面,在你面前也会娇滴滴.
真正爱你的女孩,当有人欺负你,会比你更气愤,不顾什么淑女形象和你一起大骂对方,直到消气.
真正爱你的女孩,无论你有没有成绩,都会一直鼓励你.
真正爱你的女孩,会在自己的好朋友面前不断提到你,因为她也想让朋友了解你.
真正爱你的女孩,会不停的唠叨你,其实那是对你的关心.
真正爱你的女孩,不喜欢你有什么事都自己一个人承担,那样她会更加担心.
真正爱你的女孩,每次和你聊天都舍不得自己关掉语音或是挂掉电话,都会等你关了之后才安心 .

真正爱你的男孩　
真正爱你的男孩，总是喜欢叫你小妹妹，可每次心里感到脆弱的时候，还是会用姐姐来称呼你
真正爱你的男孩，虽然想听你对他说“亲爱的”，其实心里更愿意听的是“你个死人，你跑到了哪里？“
真正爱你的男孩，虽然有很长一段时间他看不到你，但你会发现他的手机里保存的全是你发给他的暧昧的信息
真正爱你的男孩，他会故意说要你给他唱歌听，其实他更喜欢的是你和他在温柔的争执的可爱的脾气
真正爱的男孩，他嘴上虽然说不在乎你和别的男孩交往，可是每当有陌生的男人和你接触时，他会偷偷地将眉毛锁在一起，因为他在乎着你
真正爱你的男孩，他不怕你生气，怕的是你生了气发了脾气后依然不去理会他，男孩的感情也同样细腻
真正爱你的男孩，每天他的脑子里装的全是你，就连走路的时候摔了一个跟头，起来后拍拍身上的灰尘嘴角却依然挂着微笑，因为他在惦记着你
真正爱你的男孩，他会把你的相片放在他的钱包里，时刻带在身上处处陪着你
真正爱你的男孩，坐在公车上也会想起那份和你在一起的拥挤，因为他喜欢听你近距离的呼吸
真正爱你的男孩，他在吃饭的时候目光都是呆滞的，对面没有了你，嘴里的饭是没有滋味滴
真正爱你的男孩，他会省下吃饭的钱，打个电话给远方的你。
真正爱你的男孩，他会把别的女孩子写给他的情书偷偷藏起，因为他的心里只有你。
真正爱你的男孩，他每天的生活都会很积极，因为他希望自己爱的女孩看到的是阳光的自己。
真正爱你的男孩，晚上躺在床上的时候会情不自禁地去猜测你这一天到底过的好不好，为什么自己没有打喷嚏是不是你没有轻易地把他想起
真正爱你的男孩，他会数着星星在找你的星座，因为你勾起了他漫漫的思绪。
真正爱你的男孩，他不会轻易地把自己脆弱的一面展现给你，虽然他还不能给予你什么，但他会尽他最大的努力来保护你
真正爱你的男孩，他也会在他最最无助的时候想起你，不是想要你帮他什么，只是希望你不要担心他自己
真正爱你的男孩，他会把他的第一滴为女孩子哭泣的眼泪给你，因为他是那么的珍惜你

在对的时间，遇见对的人，是一生幸福
在对的时间，遇见错的人，是一场心伤
在错的时间，遇见错的人，是一段荒唐
在错的时间，遇见对的人，是一阵叹息
其实有些事情，真的是没得到的时候，最珍贵美丽
你是否分得清楚谁是你最爱的人，
谁是最爱你的人，谁是你要共度一生的人.

你最爱的，往往没有选择你；
最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；
而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的，
只是在最适合的时间出现的那个人。
你，会是别人生命中的第几个人呢？
没有人是故意要变心的，她爱你的时候是真的爱你，
可是她不爱你的时候也是真的不爱你了，
她爱你的时候没有办法假装不爱你；
同样的，她不爱你的时候也没有办法假装爱你。

聪明的人喜欢猜心，虽然每次都猜对了，却失去了自己的心.........
傻气的人喜欢给心，虽然每次都被笑了，却得到了别人的心.........

A student asks a teacher, "What is love?"
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back. But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi, but he wonders....may be there is a bigger one later.
Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him.
Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realize that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regretted !!!!
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.

The teacher told him, "this is love. you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realize, you have already miss the person.

"What is marriage then?" the student asked.
The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back.
But the rule is: you can go through them only once and cannot turn back to pick.
"The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.

The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn. you look for one that is just nice, and you have faith and believe this is the best one you get, this is marriage."

头发剪短了可以在长
辛福失去了未必找得回
美满的婚姻不是理所当然的
努力经营才会有持久的幸福

2008-01-31T09:19:00.000+08:00

phew~ im getting higher and higher everyday! =X

thanks to MR NG all along de company. even though sometime U NV SMS ME LA! >=[[
thanks to weiyang to cheering! even though sometimes u FUNNY FUNNY de la! =X
thanks to lilian willing to listen to me but UNWILLING TO MEET ME! HUMPFF~
BIG thanks to LIJIE. this guy i have not much comments. but really thx to him :)

BIGGER thanks to ALEX for de company EVERYTIME! BUT U OSO SOMETIMES NV GUAN WO DE LA! and keep ask me to sek si. and without him. i think i will be in hell right nw. :)

i still have acer road show pay n shokudo 14 days pay haven get yet. im gona get more Ts!! and nw im having GUAI PI! keep cleaning my NUM slippers everytime im gona go out. but really la! nw i noe de 40bucks and 10bucks diff. this slipper is super super SHUFU can! but i think i bought 1 size bigger. due to stupid de leg. 1 big 1 small and is obvious kind. ==

and ah! i really nid to cut down on food and YUN DONG la! just i bought de pathetic skinny at a just nice size. which oso i regretted! >"< is either i stay put or slim down. abit fat! = WANDAN! =X and right nw im still eating new yr goodies while blogging! =XX HAHA alright la~ gtg cya

2008-01-29T21:56:00.000+08:00

today expenses~

- new future skinnys
- NUM slipper
- ladies boxers

emoing at this moment. very lost. very lonely. nid a shoulder to cry on.
and yup` someone who loves u. got to LOVES u everything. from nw on! if anyone gona ask me to change for any sake of anyone! i will just say BYE and nv see again ^^

2008-01-27T09:02:00.000+08:00

still very tired right nw. but not sure why couldnt slp anymore.

yesterday went to book tickets ler. will be cfm leaving at 28 feb back on 1march.~ and still haven buy my new yr bag nor any new Ts. anyone able to pei me today to shop again?

at this moment of time. i simply super hate this family. sometimes i feel simply cast out. and i work hard sometimes just to foot de bill for home. but in de other side, i dont feel love from family. she dont even nid to wash clothes, cook, do hsework, serve my dad well, share the same bed as my dad, buy food for home cooking oso dun nid her to pay. and getting 100 every week just like this. this family HAS enuff of money to look after, why am i not studying and stuck in this kind of family. and why am i only having 5 bucks per day for sch when total up is even lesser den 50bucks per week. i really nid to cry it out u noe. why just no1 simply understands wat i nid and wat i wan. and why no1 bothers to ask me wat i actually wants. why no1 suddenly willing to sit down with me just to share my feelings. why~? i really really hope to MIA for a few months and be on my own somehow someday~

my aunty father in law just passed away. life is just really so fragile. this min mention he sick. next min he passed away ler..

is this wat we call life?~~

2008-01-26T08:36:00.000+08:00

stupid me! x.x place my water bottle infront of my keyboard. and SPLASH! onto my keyboard. xD early morning got stunt liao. =="

right nw bitting on to cereal bread and pine nuts. and thinking on him~ later on going orchard meeting them to book ticket for genting trip. and 50 dollars can buy she mo bag sia!

hao ba. anyhow blog till here 1st. i go back and get some more slp with 2 bread and 4 kueh buru in my tummy =x

2008-01-25T11:09:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

2. You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.

3. You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

4. Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?

5. Your boyfriend believes that you are a strong and independent person. Your confidence and cheerfulness make you an attractive person to be around, but sometimes you need to pay more attention to what other people, including your boyfriend, are thinking.

~*wO aI nI*~